My 52nd Birthday @ 2021

 My birthday this year was an unexpected one, a sweet pleasure because of someone least expected. In the morning, I received 2 slices of cake from ZM, Sam ‘boyfriend’ through Grab delivery. It’s thoughtful of him. Out of courtesy, I asked Sam to invite him to join us for dinner that night @ Rakuzen. At dinner I got a chance to know him better. Surprisingly he turned out to be an interesting young man, outgoing, enthusiastic and well mannered too. How could that possibly be when my gal is so quiet, reserved and sometimes boring, can attract such a person. Maybe I failed to see the interesting side of my gal, hmm. Anyway, I am excited and happy for her. I was happy to see how caring he was towards my gal when she sat right under the centralized air conditioner and was shivering during the dinner. I saw his uneasy face, showing great concern. In fact, he kept us entertained the whole evening in the sense that he patiently answered all our questions and showed enthusiasm. He is knowledgeable and seems to have great passion in acquiring knowledge. He will pursue further education in finance and business in China coming September. I wish him all the best.

Honestly I don’t really like the idea of Sam committing to a relationship so soon especially when she is still studying and will go abroad later on.  But what to do, she’s already 20 this year and due to peer pressure and her brother role model, looks like that’s it. I really hope they both will have the right focus at this stage of life.

I always tell my gal to get someone who loves her more, someone who makes her happy and smile. Hope she finds one. 

JS summer break 2019

He graduated with a first class honor on 21 June 2019 at HW Edinburgh after 3 years of degree study. We are all proud of him. He did a great job. He is now doing his Master at Cass Uni in London at this point.

I am feeling grateful to him because he has opened up my heart this summer break. I guess he won’t know he  did me those favors until he read this. Chatting with him was comfortable and inspiring. He showed me his maturity and that many things is possible, starting from our UK road trip where he took us to the unbeaten path of the beautiful mountainous terrains. It was not in my itinerary, we did the beyond. He is full of energy and enthusiasm. He is knowledgeable and fun to be with. I was stuck in life for a while now. His return surprisingly brought back so much life to me. I learnt to take life day by day and not worrying so much about tomorrow. I went with the flow and surprisingly, all went well and I felt good.

My only problem now is his health. His last medical check up showed high cholesterol, high glucose and high urid acid which is alarming at his age. He enjoys food too much. Now that he knows his condition, I really hope he will stick to a clean diet from now on.

Back home, we lost Lassie to cancer in her tummy. It hurt so much to let her go. She was put down a day before JS returned home. Lassie is a good dog, obedient, smart and brought so much  joy to us. I prayed that she will have a good reincarnation. JS understood my pain, suggested to get another pet to keep me company. So we got Coffy, a toy poodle.

Let Go!

3.8.18 - It's really time to let go.  It may not be a bad thing after all coz I am beginning to feel better and happier.  If I spend time on upgrading myself, enriching my knowledge, be a better person in general instead, it will definitely be more meaningful to live.

I have been 'meddling' with my kids life all these years, showering them with care, love, concerns with a certain degree of strictness.  I set rules for them to obey since young in hope that they can grow up to be a person with good values.  It is until now that I realized that it is time to let go, when they complained last week that I stayed at home all the time while their friends' mom are still working actively in the work force. I was a little hurt though coz I know what they meant.  They had enough of me.  If a drive home with my gal from school cannot be as lovely as I thought when she does not feel like talking to me, I thought that an expensive buffet at a five star  Shangrila hotel would make a difference and will be great for family bonding. No, it was not.  My boy was engrossed with his handphone and it was a boring buffet that evening for me.  The more I expect, the more I get disappointed.

If letting go is a win win situation for all of us, then why not.  But I wonder is there a limit to this, how much should I let go, to what certain extent I have to stand up as a mother?  Well, guess it all depends on situation and until then, I have yet to know.

Learn to Love Myself

💗👩 5.5.18 - Had the urge to blog again today. Instead of paying for a fanciful template of creating a more sophisticated blog, I chose to continue with this pioneer blog created by my young JS and JW for me 9 years back. Moreover, my gal loves to read my blog and is my fan 👧. She is officially my follower today, hooray! Though she is the one and only follower, it doesn't matter.

Back to the topic, I have been watching motivational videos lately and I found an interesting way to actually make life works better for me.  I am learning to love myself.  Each time I love myself, I will take better care of my body, my health, my mind, etc.  No matter how lazy and unmotivated I feel, I just need to remind myself that I have to love myself and get out there to exercise and move my body. and not end up being an obese mom and wife.  If I love myself, I must not eat those junks that will harm my body in long run and end up being a sick elderly and become a liability to my family.  I have to cook healthy for me and for my family.  As I have binge eating habit, I must make sure that my house has no junk food or whatsoever but fruits and vegetable.

New Year Day 1.1.18

Gosh, it has been more than 2 years that I wrote and those missing chapters include moving into my new house at SM, my boy leaving home for further studies in Edinburgh and my brother leaving Malaysia for good on 12.8.17 for Melbourne. Well, time passes real fast and now we are into the new year 2018.

On this new year day, I was clueless of what was in plan for me.  Early morning, TH told me that dad called and suggested a trip to Tanjung Karang for seafood.  He just didnt want to sit at home and do nothing. So TH invited him to our house instead and suggested to bring him to the new mall nearby, Melawati Mall.  Susan drove him and mom over at 1pm.  Had a pleasant chat at home before we took him to lunch at Restoran Teo Chew Setapak for a nostalgic feel of the traditional sinful food, heavily laden with pork lard. Dad started to tell his story about that place which he frequent when he was young and that he remembered there was a popular nightclub in the vicinity too. Then took him for a leisure drive around Air Panas that he remembered well too before we made it to Melawati Mall. He enjoyed shopping too.  He wanted to buy clothes for CNY.  Susan bought some socks for mom.  Mom sat down and waited patiently for us.  Very soon, it was 6pm and we had chendol at Teo Chew Penang inside the mall before we left for home. 

I salute dad and mom for the energy that they have at their age.  Dad is 88 this year and mom is 83. Spending a day with them on this new year actually inspires me.  I want to do more in life and live with great enthusiasm and energy.

Evernote from my boy

31.8.15 - Its 11.25pm now and all are in bed except me on my computer. I have just finished transferring my blogs from my handphone via Evernote. Thanks to my boy again for such a big favour.  He was watching me typing all over again the blogs in my computer and he taught me a way of doing it hassle free. He introduced me to Evernote. I have just transferred over 30 blogs swiftly a while ago.  I am grateful to him.

Earlier on, I forgotten how to retrieve the blogspot. They both helped to recall for me. I appreciate their help and honestly, this whole blogspot is a gift from them initially for me to pen down whatever I like. Now, it becomes a way for them to read my mind and thoughts too, anytime they want.

Though I am recording my life in black and white, I have realized that this blogspot is not as important as it seems. It will always be a reflection of my life and I should not dwell on the past.  I have to let go and move on so that I will have more stories to tell and pen them down.

To a meaningful life!

My new home soon

26.4.15 - it seems like ages since I last wrote on this blog.

Finally the day has come and my new house is ready for handover. I collected my keys on 23.4.15 last Thursday that is.

I remember after all the excitement over a period of 2 years wait, the day has finally came. TH and I had shared so many precious time together making plans, purchases and rushing to avoid the GST time line in April. Gosh! It was a hassle but we did our best and saved few hundreds in our bank account.

Well, on 23.4.15, we met Yus, a friendly Malay guy at the clubhouse for an official hand over. He did some explanation, got us signed some papers and off we went. V made our way down to our unit and I had the privilege to open the door to my new house for the first time. It was a swift but the excitement began to wear out as the day went by. We were both extremely exhausted. It felt like as if we have reached the finishing line in a long race.

KP and Joanne came over to visit our new house, they seemed more anxious and excited than us. They bought a townhouse and is expected to be ready in September this year.