JS UPSR Result

I just need to put this on record before I forget that special moment. JS UPSR result was out on 19.11.09, all in the family was especially nervous and excited. Deep down, I knew that he did well but at the same time, I had doubts and feared that he failed me. In the morning after breakfast, I was so impatient that I made a wild suggestion to TH that we drive down and check it out at the school that very instant. We didnt. The thrill lasted until I stopped my car in front of the school gate when both of them came running towards me. I saw JW signalling 7 fingers and at that moment I tried to distract myself and looked into Julius direction. He tried to put up a fake expression but the moment I saw him, I knew that he had done me proud. I had goosebump and felt like crying. It was tears of joy. I was on cloud 9 and that special moment will forever leave a mark on me. I thanks GOD for that moment. That evening, I broke down knowing well that he had mom and dad blessings. They never left us. I knew they will be so proud especially mom who will definitely go out immediately to reward him. Mom adores JS very much.

I had always been tough on JS since young on his school work. I sat down and did revision with him most of the time and kept putting pressure on him and myself unconsciously with either a cane or a ruler at hand. I still do not know if this is the right way of helping him but I am glad that he was tough enough to take it from me all this while. Sometimes, I think I owe him an apology for making life so hard for him. I could not handle well the pressures from his exam and I tend to pass on the pressures to him as well. JS, if you are reading this now, mommy say sorry to you. But I want you to always remember that you will definitely be a greater success than me and that is all that I wish for you. Success, Happy and Healthy Always!

Now that you will be into your secondary school next year, let us welcome this new chapter of your life and walk together with you.

Dong Zhi n Guilin Trip 2009

At this point of writing, I am with my 2 darlings having tea and tong yuen in the garden. Yesterday was dong Zhi (reunion) and it was never the same for the 1st time. I missed dad, mom and the rest in the family at the dinner table that used to be a norm for 4 decades. I still long to be with them and wish the impossible of turning back the clock. I used to think I cannot live without them but guess in reality there is no options. When time is due, we just gotto to live on with changes. Though they are not with me anymore, I still feel close at heart.

Well, life goes on and I have to acknowledge the fact that I am indeed a lucky lady. At this stage of life, JS will be 13 next year and deemed adult status and litte JW will be 8. Yesterday was the 1st time I prepared to let them have a hand on making tong yuen by themselves and to my relief, it was rather fun. I felt good having those tong yuen made by them. I love them so much. I begin to enjoy their company. I truly believe there is chemistry between us all in the family. Dad likes to crack jokes with JS while JW tends to behave like me, always ready to shoot them down with sarcastic comments. However it always end up with fun and laughter in the family.

I returned from Guilin just last Sunday @ 20.12.09 after a week holiday with family. The trip was indeed a memorable one and by far the best of all China trips. We went on our own and had adventures hiking, biking, bamboo rafting and caves exploring. Yangshuo is so beautiful that I could just sit by the riverside in front of my hotel @ Yangshuo Mountain Retreat and felt on top of the world. The scenery was so breathtaking and peaceful that unconsciously I was in fact went into meditation and that feeling was just unbelievable. I love that place and I swear I will be back there again. If God's willing, I hope I can put up a brave front and volunteer myself to a program offered by the Retreat to give free English lessons to the rural children there. I believe I can find better comfort and meaning in life by doing so.

We were lucky on this trip because it was a low season at this period of the year where we had most things all by ourselves. There were hardly any other guests in the hotels, caves, countryside biking, etc. It was relaxing and at the same time, fun. JS and JW were great companions, TH was the executor while I was the mastermind of all. Easy job eh! I had so much fun, thanks to each and every one in the family. I love them all.

This blog is created on 26 May 2009 at precisely 6:53pm with the help of my two little darlings at home. I am so proud of them but I shall write something later. Now lazy and tired.