3.8.18 - It's really time to let go. It may not be a bad thing after all coz I am beginning to feel better and happier. If I spend time on upgrading myself, enriching my knowledge, be a better person in general instead, it will definitely be more meaningful to live.
I have been 'meddling' with my kids life all these years, showering them with care, love, concerns with a certain degree of strictness. I set rules for them to obey since young in hope that they can grow up to be a person with good values. It is until now that I realized that it is time to let go, when they complained last week that I stayed at home all the time while their friends' mom are still working actively in the work force. I was a little hurt though coz I know what they meant. They had enough of me. If a drive home with my gal from school cannot be as lovely as I thought when she does not feel like talking to me, I thought that an expensive buffet at a five star Shangrila hotel would make a difference and will be great for family bonding. No, it was not. My boy was engrossed with his handphone and it was a boring buffet that evening for me. The more I expect, the more I get disappointed.
If letting go is a win win situation for all of us, then why not. But I wonder is there a limit to this, how much should I let go, to what certain extent I have to stand up as a mother? Well, guess it all depends on situation and until then, I have yet to know.
Tuesday, August 7, 2018
Friday, May 4, 2018
Learn to Love Myself
💗👩 5.5.18 - Had the urge to blog again today. Instead of paying for a fanciful template of creating a more sophisticated blog, I chose to continue with this pioneer blog created by my young JS and JW for me 9 years back. Moreover, my gal loves to read my blog and is my fan 👧. She is officially my follower today, hooray! Though she is the one and only follower, it doesn't matter.
Back to the topic, I have been watching motivational videos lately and I found an interesting way to actually make life works better for me. I am learning to love myself. Each time I love myself, I will take better care of my body, my health, my mind, etc. No matter how lazy and unmotivated I feel, I just need to remind myself that I have to love myself and get out there to exercise and move my body. and not end up being an obese mom and wife. If I love myself, I must not eat those junks that will harm my body in long run and end up being a sick elderly and become a liability to my family. I have to cook healthy for me and for my family. As I have binge eating habit, I must make sure that my house has no junk food or whatsoever but fruits and vegetable.
Back to the topic, I have been watching motivational videos lately and I found an interesting way to actually make life works better for me. I am learning to love myself. Each time I love myself, I will take better care of my body, my health, my mind, etc. No matter how lazy and unmotivated I feel, I just need to remind myself that I have to love myself and get out there to exercise and move my body. and not end up being an obese mom and wife. If I love myself, I must not eat those junks that will harm my body in long run and end up being a sick elderly and become a liability to my family. I have to cook healthy for me and for my family. As I have binge eating habit, I must make sure that my house has no junk food or whatsoever but fruits and vegetable.
Monday, January 1, 2018
New Year Day 1.1.18
Gosh, it has been more than 2 years that I wrote and those missing chapters include moving into my new house at SM, my boy leaving home for further studies in Edinburgh and my brother leaving Malaysia for good on 12.8.17 for Melbourne. Well, time passes real fast and now we are into the new year 2018.
On this new year day, I was clueless of what was in plan for me. Early morning, TH told me that dad called and suggested a trip to Tanjung Karang for seafood. He just didnt want to sit at home and do nothing. So TH invited him to our house instead and suggested to bring him to the new mall nearby, Melawati Mall. Susan drove him and mom over at 1pm. Had a pleasant chat at home before we took him to lunch at Restoran Teo Chew Setapak for a nostalgic feel of the traditional sinful food, heavily laden with pork lard. Dad started to tell his story about that place which he frequent when he was young and that he remembered there was a popular nightclub in the vicinity too. Then took him for a leisure drive around Air Panas that he remembered well too before we made it to Melawati Mall. He enjoyed shopping too. He wanted to buy clothes for CNY. Susan bought some socks for mom. Mom sat down and waited patiently for us. Very soon, it was 6pm and we had chendol at Teo Chew Penang inside the mall before we left for home.
I salute dad and mom for the energy that they have at their age. Dad is 88 this year and mom is 83. Spending a day with them on this new year actually inspires me. I want to do more in life and live with great enthusiasm and energy.
On this new year day, I was clueless of what was in plan for me. Early morning, TH told me that dad called and suggested a trip to Tanjung Karang for seafood. He just didnt want to sit at home and do nothing. So TH invited him to our house instead and suggested to bring him to the new mall nearby, Melawati Mall. Susan drove him and mom over at 1pm. Had a pleasant chat at home before we took him to lunch at Restoran Teo Chew Setapak for a nostalgic feel of the traditional sinful food, heavily laden with pork lard. Dad started to tell his story about that place which he frequent when he was young and that he remembered there was a popular nightclub in the vicinity too. Then took him for a leisure drive around Air Panas that he remembered well too before we made it to Melawati Mall. He enjoyed shopping too. He wanted to buy clothes for CNY. Susan bought some socks for mom. Mom sat down and waited patiently for us. Very soon, it was 6pm and we had chendol at Teo Chew Penang inside the mall before we left for home.
I salute dad and mom for the energy that they have at their age. Dad is 88 this year and mom is 83. Spending a day with them on this new year actually inspires me. I want to do more in life and live with great enthusiasm and energy.
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