3.8.18 - It's really time to let go. It may not be a bad thing after all coz I am beginning to feel better and happier. If I spend time on upgrading myself, enriching my knowledge, be a better person in general instead, it will definitely be more meaningful to live.
I have been 'meddling' with my kids life all these years, showering them with care, love, concerns with a certain degree of strictness. I set rules for them to obey since young in hope that they can grow up to be a person with good values. It is until now that I realized that it is time to let go, when they complained last week that I stayed at home all the time while their friends' mom are still working actively in the work force. I was a little hurt though coz I know what they meant. They had enough of me. If a drive home with my gal from school cannot be as lovely as I thought when she does not feel like talking to me, I thought that an expensive buffet at a five star Shangrila hotel would make a difference and will be great for family bonding. No, it was not. My boy was engrossed with his handphone and it was a boring buffet that evening for me. The more I expect, the more I get disappointed.
If letting go is a win win situation for all of us, then why not. But I wonder is there a limit to this, how much should I let go, to what certain extent I have to stand up as a mother? Well, guess it all depends on situation and until then, I have yet to know.
