Thursday, December 30, 2010
22.12.2010
Today is Dong Zhi. I had reunion dinner at Wong Kee with my in laws. I am so sorry that I cannot reunite with JL and CC on this day. ML was discharged from Pantai Hospital just yesterday after a minor surgery to remove a swollen pile. It's 2:40am now past midnight and I just couldnt sleep. Had a few drinks with Cheri, HO and LCL at Vinnie Girl just now. Supposed to discuss our CNY trip to Jakarta and Bandung but ended up lik this, a headache and sleepless night. I ended up being the organiser and I truly hate doing this. Well, looks like I have no choice but to go ahead with the arrangements. So far, me and TH, Cheri and HO, KP and Joanne and Galaxy, LCL Seah and Irene have confirmed. Hope we make the trip and have some fun together. It's rather unhealthy to go for a goyang trip like this but it will be fun and a good way to release stress too. Let's see.....
New Year Day 2010
It is past midnight @ 12:53am now on new year day. I am now in PD aprtment with my family. My kids and hubby are sound asleep while I am penning this. I miss the countdown with Cheri and gang back in KL. Didnt know about the countdown party until I reached PD when Cheri text me. Felt a little disappointed not able to party with them but think twice, it is much healthier for me to celebrate here with my family than indulging in liquor. Watched 3 episodes of 'pa da pa, papa' together, had fruits, pistachios and beer just before the countdown on TV2 and now in bed, sleepless. Bidding farewell to 2009 yet again reminds me of the loss of dad and the fact that dad will no longer exist in 2010 made me feel sad. Somehow I am so thankful for every remembrance of dad whenever I come to this little apartment that dad bought me back then. I try not to remove the items that were put up by dad and mom despite the tear and wear. Hopefully this apartment will keep our fond memories alive forever. There is an offer made to us to rent out but I remember clearly dad didnt wish to do so coz he wish to maintain it as our very own holiday retreat. True enough, I understand his intention now. This 900sqft apartment not only brings back memories but also bind my family closer when we vacuum and mop the floor, wipe tables and chairs, lay the bed sheets, we do all these together hand in hand before we can comfortably settle in. This is truly a blessing from dad. Dad left behind this gift with a purpose and it works!
The kids went for a swim in the morning on this new year day but the pool was crowded with most Malays. It was just a short swim and we were off to Kedai Kopi Paklang in town for an early lunch. Food was not up to standard on this day, will most probably boycott this shop for a period of time. Now we are in the car waiting for TH to get some fruits and instant noodles from Pasaraya Mydin for our tea time later. JW and I suggested to go to Red Box but our JS wish to continue watching the 'pa da pa papa'.
The kids went for a swim in the morning on this new year day but the pool was crowded with most Malays. It was just a short swim and we were off to Kedai Kopi Paklang in town for an early lunch. Food was not up to standard on this day, will most probably boycott this shop for a period of time. Now we are in the car waiting for TH to get some fruits and instant noodles from Pasaraya Mydin for our tea time later. JW and I suggested to go to Red Box but our JS wish to continue watching the 'pa da pa papa'.
TH 43rd birthday
Today is 10 December 2010. It's kind of funny this birthday, all because of our little lovely JW who got too enthusiastic and overly excited. Just because JS and I made some effort to cheer her up on her birthday last July, she decided to put up something for dad. She actually cut papers with instructions for him to follow, asking him to find certain things all over the house, throwing questions at him and made him play a game of Mastermind and a game of Connect with her. Hehehe, it was so weird. Poor dad, tried hard to play along interestingly with her so to appreciate her efforts and it ended up more like the little girl's birthday.
She has been pestering me over the last two weeks about her arrangement for dad but I felt it was just too tedious. She insisted and was extremely excited. She did it all on her own. I told her not to make it too tough as it will be too tiring for the birthday man. Luckily, it all ends well. She helped dad to play along and solve all her items.
Will be checking into Cyberview Lodge Resort and Spa in Putrajaya tomorow. It will be an educational trip for the kids and a birthday treat for dad. Here, I wish him happy and healthy always!
She has been pestering me over the last two weeks about her arrangement for dad but I felt it was just too tedious. She insisted and was extremely excited. She did it all on her own. I told her not to make it too tough as it will be too tiring for the birthday man. Luckily, it all ends well. She helped dad to play along and solve all her items.
Will be checking into Cyberview Lodge Resort and Spa in Putrajaya tomorow. It will be an educational trip for the kids and a birthday treat for dad. Here, I wish him happy and healthy always!
Demise of Tai Kau Foo
Today is a gloomy day on 3 November 2010. Aunt Alice text me at 3pm this afternoon, informed that tai kau foo has just passed away. I am now on my swing chair dad bought me, trying to recollect the memories of him. I shed tears for him, feel very sad and helpless. He will be missed. Still remember our norm when he always join us for our reunion dinners and that he love mom's fried tomato big prawns as much as I do. After dinner, he would share some light moments with dad over a few glasses of brandy. He was dad's best companion. He died of cancer after a struggle of almost three years. Last week, when I visited him at UKM, he was extremely weak and was bedridden. I saw teary eyes in a strong man and felt so sorry for him. Yes, he was suffering in pain and ready to go. He has acknowledged the cruel fact and was putting up a brave front for us. I knew he was bidding his last farewell when we were at the door. Now that he has gone, I pray that he will find peace in the next world. It's so heartbroken to see the old ones leaving one after the other, I just wish time can slow down for all of us....
It's 1am past midnight on 5 November 2010 on Deepavali Day. Couldnt sleep due to the fireworks outside. I am missing dad at this moment. Just got home from tai mau foo funeral. Learnt from tai kam mo that he was choked to death by milk on that day. She thanked us for the bird nest we bought him at UKM just last week. He left behind 2 bottles out of the half dozen. Was glad that he managed to enjoy the bird nest and that we also bid him farewell at UKM. Was also told that prior to his demise, he dreamt of dad twice. Dad was selling coconut juiceand he said that he will be visiting dad in Cheras soon. He knew his time is up. Coincidently, he left on the very same date as tai yi on the lunar calendar. Perhaps that is the brother sister chemistry. I am missing dad so dearly now. At the funeral, 4th uncle again reminded me that dad loves me the most. I knew it's a message from dad. I feel so sorry to dad for not able to love him as much as he does. Up to this day, he and mom have instill so much love in me that almost everything I do, I feel loved and blessed. I was so protected and have their blessing no matter what I do. They made me feel so special in this world. I wanted to have mom's gold chain and pendant she used to wear but dad gave it to brother. I didnt understand until dad gave me his. Then only I realized his reasoning, it's his unconditional love for me. He said it represents his blessing from above. I am so sorry that I didnt understand his kind intention then. I really hope on this deepavali, I can meet him in my dream to say I'm sorry!
After funeral, we dropped by San Peng road and had our old time bubur cha cha. Surprisingly, the stall was still there by the road side after almost 10 years we didnt go there. Introduced our favourite dessert to the kids and told them stories of those days. They love it:) Showed them Helen and Pong old flat and recalled some precious memories. I did shared bed with Helen on few occasion at that place.
It's 1am past midnight on 5 November 2010 on Deepavali Day. Couldnt sleep due to the fireworks outside. I am missing dad at this moment. Just got home from tai mau foo funeral. Learnt from tai kam mo that he was choked to death by milk on that day. She thanked us for the bird nest we bought him at UKM just last week. He left behind 2 bottles out of the half dozen. Was glad that he managed to enjoy the bird nest and that we also bid him farewell at UKM. Was also told that prior to his demise, he dreamt of dad twice. Dad was selling coconut juiceand he said that he will be visiting dad in Cheras soon. He knew his time is up. Coincidently, he left on the very same date as tai yi on the lunar calendar. Perhaps that is the brother sister chemistry. I am missing dad so dearly now. At the funeral, 4th uncle again reminded me that dad loves me the most. I knew it's a message from dad. I feel so sorry to dad for not able to love him as much as he does. Up to this day, he and mom have instill so much love in me that almost everything I do, I feel loved and blessed. I was so protected and have their blessing no matter what I do. They made me feel so special in this world. I wanted to have mom's gold chain and pendant she used to wear but dad gave it to brother. I didnt understand until dad gave me his. Then only I realized his reasoning, it's his unconditional love for me. He said it represents his blessing from above. I am so sorry that I didnt understand his kind intention then. I really hope on this deepavali, I can meet him in my dream to say I'm sorry!
After funeral, we dropped by San Peng road and had our old time bubur cha cha. Surprisingly, the stall was still there by the road side after almost 10 years we didnt go there. Introduced our favourite dessert to the kids and told them stories of those days. They love it:) Showed them Helen and Pong old flat and recalled some precious memories. I did shared bed with Helen on few occasion at that place.
Thursday, October 7, 2010
JS Blunder At School
Today is 28.8.2010, I am now having my herbalife breakfast with TH at this point of writing.
Last night, I overheard JS conversation with his buddy classmate, Wei Vern on the phone and found out that he made a blunder at school. WV claimed that JS has caused his dad's body spray being confiscated by teacher in class and he had to pay for it. He has been pressurizing him over the week for $30. I was kind of worried that he didnt approach me or TH over it. He just kept it to himself. He has been telling WV that he didnt have the moeny to pay him. But WV told him last night that he needed the money in two days time.
So I asked JS to relate to me the whole ordeal. I didnt think it was his fault at first until I spoke to WV, then I got the whole picture. When WV took out the body spray to show it to Roy, JS sitting beside him happened to see it and made a hoo ha over it. That was when the teacher thought that they were playing in class and decided to confiscate the item.
Hmm... JS is somehow guilty too, so I decided to compensate WV $20 only.I felt that WV too must be held responsible as he should not have taken out the body spray when class is in progress.
This is JS Lesson 1 in life. Told him that it doesnt matter if he does wrong but the more important thing is that he owns it and apologize. We all make mistakes and learn from them. Mistakes help to shape us up to be a better person. It's alright!
Last night, I overheard JS conversation with his buddy classmate, Wei Vern on the phone and found out that he made a blunder at school. WV claimed that JS has caused his dad's body spray being confiscated by teacher in class and he had to pay for it. He has been pressurizing him over the week for $30. I was kind of worried that he didnt approach me or TH over it. He just kept it to himself. He has been telling WV that he didnt have the moeny to pay him. But WV told him last night that he needed the money in two days time.
So I asked JS to relate to me the whole ordeal. I didnt think it was his fault at first until I spoke to WV, then I got the whole picture. When WV took out the body spray to show it to Roy, JS sitting beside him happened to see it and made a hoo ha over it. That was when the teacher thought that they were playing in class and decided to confiscate the item.
Hmm... JS is somehow guilty too, so I decided to compensate WV $20 only.I felt that WV too must be held responsible as he should not have taken out the body spray when class is in progress.
This is JS Lesson 1 in life. Told him that it doesnt matter if he does wrong but the more important thing is that he owns it and apologize. We all make mistakes and learn from them. Mistakes help to shape us up to be a better person. It's alright!
Mom's Fish Paste
Today is 3 Sept 2010. I am in the toilet penning this. Well, it worth jotting down this simple joy.
I made 'kau kee' soup for dinner today and I added fish ball from mom's recipe. I bought a fresh fish from market this morning and following mom's recipe, I made the fish paste. This is not the first time I make the paste but this is definitely the first time it tasted exactly like mom and all in my family love it. TH jokingly places order for 50pcs in future and JW wants 100pcs.
I feel extremely happy that it was a success and each fish balls I placed in my mouth reminds me of MOM! Miss her so much......
I made 'kau kee' soup for dinner today and I added fish ball from mom's recipe. I bought a fresh fish from market this morning and following mom's recipe, I made the fish paste. This is not the first time I make the paste but this is definitely the first time it tasted exactly like mom and all in my family love it. TH jokingly places order for 50pcs in future and JW wants 100pcs.
I feel extremely happy that it was a success and each fish balls I placed in my mouth reminds me of MOM! Miss her so much......
World Cup 2010 (South Africa)
It's 11:30pm now on 11 July 2010 and I am in bed recalling the World Cup football games so far. The final game is between Spain and Holland tomorrow at 2:30am that is three hours later. I will be watching the game later with TH and JS. I am a fan of Germany and sadly, they lost to Spain in the semifinal but won the 3rd placing just this morning, defeated Uruguay. Their best game was when they unexpectedly defeated Argentina 4-0 in the quarterfinal. They have excellent team work.
TH is a fan of Spain whereas JS adores Brazil. JW supported Germany i.e. ME! It is amazing that this time around, an octopus existed in Germany by the name of Paul and it has been predicting all Germany's games including their loss to Serbia dn to Spain correctly. It now predicts that Spain will win the WC, defeating Holland. Well, I hope Holland wins because I have bet $50 for $400.
It's now 5:30am and the game is over. Spain won in extra time 1-0. Paul is right again. I won $700 from draw in 90mins but lost $50 on Holland. I have been texting my sister and brother during the game and it was fun. I thank GOD for having them in my life.
Well, gotto get ready for school now. Thiam Hin is preparing spaghetti for breakfast and the kids are dressing up. I am still in bed, penning off now for school and my morning walk at FRIM:)
TH is a fan of Spain whereas JS adores Brazil. JW supported Germany i.e. ME! It is amazing that this time around, an octopus existed in Germany by the name of Paul and it has been predicting all Germany's games including their loss to Serbia dn to Spain correctly. It now predicts that Spain will win the WC, defeating Holland. Well, I hope Holland wins because I have bet $50 for $400.
It's now 5:30am and the game is over. Spain won in extra time 1-0. Paul is right again. I won $700 from draw in 90mins but lost $50 on Holland. I have been texting my sister and brother during the game and it was fun. I thank GOD for having them in my life.
Well, gotto get ready for school now. Thiam Hin is preparing spaghetti for breakfast and the kids are dressing up. I am still in bed, penning off now for school and my morning walk at FRIM:)
YTH
He's my guardian angel. Destined to meet him at the age of 20 when I graduated from Stamford Ladies College. We met at a disco in Crown Princess Hotel with our own group of friends. We were briefly introduced and that night, I didnt have any impression on him. It was until my friend, GH informed that he had a crush on me and had asked her for my contact number. He called and we chatted and eventually were friends.
I was very reserved and shy. When we first dated, I remember I brought my brother along and we went to the National Zoo. I also brought my sister when we went out for drinks. It was a gradual thing that eventually I was comfortable with him. At that time, Goh BK was after me too but nah, he was just too tall for me.
TH was reserve and humble. I liked his effort in getting me a stalk of rose each time we went out for a date. He always hid it in the car, behind the mirror flap. Not too long thereafter, he got me a Alain Delon watch for my birthday and that was his first present to me. It was quite expensive and I was then reluctant to take but he insisted. Then I knew he was serious and since I liked him too, I accepted it.
I remember at one time, I lost my precious diamond pendant mom gave me for my 21st birthday, I was really upset. He called and he consoled me and offered me his gold chain that his mom gave him to replace mine. Though he didnt understand the sentimental value of the pendant, it was very sweet of him:)
He's a Hokkien from a Chinese school and I am a Cantonese from a Malay school. We had vast differences. I didnt like his friends and neither did he join mine. But then, we were so in love and engrossed in the courtship process that nothing else mattered. He traveled from Selayang to Cheras after office hours in the jam to take me out for date in town and sent me home before he headed home. It was extremely tedious and I was so unkind that at times, I blamed him for being late. Luckily he had good tolerance.
We dated for 6 years and in 1995, we decided to walk the aisle. What prompted the proposal was when we were out with a group of friends at Bettlenut Bar back then, we bumped into Lee SK, Khor and friends and they jokingly asked him if we have any plan to tie the knot. He told them that it will be very soon. I was taken aback by his answer and then, I figured out that he was afraid of losing me to them because during college times, we went to trips together and had mutual likings before. A week later, he proposed:) But we broke up for precisely 10 days prior to our marriage. I refused to move into his parents house. I was terrified by the thought of having to stay with his rather huge family under the same roof. We couldnt compromise. At that time, Wilson took his chances. I went out with him and he showed me a condo unit in Bangsar that belongs to his dad, hehehe! Nah, there wasnt room in my heart then. Well, I got my own home now with lots of privacy and maintain a good relationship with my parents in law. GOD is so kind.
TH is kind of timid in nature but glad he will still overcome his fears to help me out each time. His only drawback is that he is so unromantic and can be very insensitive. Other than that, he's my man, no regrets!
I was very reserved and shy. When we first dated, I remember I brought my brother along and we went to the National Zoo. I also brought my sister when we went out for drinks. It was a gradual thing that eventually I was comfortable with him. At that time, Goh BK was after me too but nah, he was just too tall for me.
TH was reserve and humble. I liked his effort in getting me a stalk of rose each time we went out for a date. He always hid it in the car, behind the mirror flap. Not too long thereafter, he got me a Alain Delon watch for my birthday and that was his first present to me. It was quite expensive and I was then reluctant to take but he insisted. Then I knew he was serious and since I liked him too, I accepted it.
I remember at one time, I lost my precious diamond pendant mom gave me for my 21st birthday, I was really upset. He called and he consoled me and offered me his gold chain that his mom gave him to replace mine. Though he didnt understand the sentimental value of the pendant, it was very sweet of him:)
He's a Hokkien from a Chinese school and I am a Cantonese from a Malay school. We had vast differences. I didnt like his friends and neither did he join mine. But then, we were so in love and engrossed in the courtship process that nothing else mattered. He traveled from Selayang to Cheras after office hours in the jam to take me out for date in town and sent me home before he headed home. It was extremely tedious and I was so unkind that at times, I blamed him for being late. Luckily he had good tolerance.
We dated for 6 years and in 1995, we decided to walk the aisle. What prompted the proposal was when we were out with a group of friends at Bettlenut Bar back then, we bumped into Lee SK, Khor and friends and they jokingly asked him if we have any plan to tie the knot. He told them that it will be very soon. I was taken aback by his answer and then, I figured out that he was afraid of losing me to them because during college times, we went to trips together and had mutual likings before. A week later, he proposed:) But we broke up for precisely 10 days prior to our marriage. I refused to move into his parents house. I was terrified by the thought of having to stay with his rather huge family under the same roof. We couldnt compromise. At that time, Wilson took his chances. I went out with him and he showed me a condo unit in Bangsar that belongs to his dad, hehehe! Nah, there wasnt room in my heart then. Well, I got my own home now with lots of privacy and maintain a good relationship with my parents in law. GOD is so kind.
TH is kind of timid in nature but glad he will still overcome his fears to help me out each time. His only drawback is that he is so unromantic and can be very insensitive. Other than that, he's my man, no regrets!
YJS
JS is a treasure. He's a very special gift from GOD. He is my pride. At young age, he had my look and was extremely cute and likeable. My mom and I adore him very much and he was taken care by mom since young until the age of 7. He was a jovial, playful and an obedient boy.
I remember the first day he started schooling at Charis Shinning Star kindergarten in Taynton View, he was very excited as we told him how fun school will be. On that day, TH and I went to mom's place early in the morning and saw him to the school bus. After a minute or two, we headed to school to check him out. We looked anxiously for him among the crowd and found him crying terribly in the arm of a teacher there. Ouch! we felt so bad as we could imagined how terrified our poor boy was when he had to face such a crowd all on his own for the very first time. We were so sorry. Then on, we arranged for Kakak Endang to accompany him to school until he settled down. Still remember that Kakak told me he made Kakak promise to wait at the window outside the classroom so that he can see her.
As both of us had to work, we could only afford to bring him home every weekend. Sometimes, we miss him so much, we went all the way to Cheras after a quick dinner to spend some time with him.
Mom did a great job, she has taken my role. She shared her bed with him, told him bed time stories, sang to him, played with him. Mom would update me with his development without fail. I was told that my boy woke up very early ahead of all others and would wish everyone a good morning without fail. Kakak also played a part in nurturing him, helped him with his school work, played with him, read to him, etc.
He loved puzzles at young age and was very fast in getting them done. He could already solved a 1000pc puzzle at the age of 7. He also enjoyed reading books. He liked me reading to him and when I felt lazy at times, I purposely missed a page or two but he always knew it and asked me to flip back the page. Attentive boy!
As he is my first child, he was quite lonely when he came home. He always woke up earlier than me and spent his time alone at the writing desk in my room before waking me up after he got bored. He used to enjoy writing his father's name onto the magic tape and paste it onto almost all the items on his desk i.e. on ruler, staple, lamp, etc. Adorable!
Took him to Korea for holiday at the age of 5. It was a memorable trip for him indeed as he met with a minor accident in the airport toilet. He accidently zipped his penis and it was stucked in his jeans. He screamed so badly in pain that I had to calm him down and I remember clearly that I asked him to help me to help him. I told him to stop screaming as I panic if he screams. He immediately obliged and stopped screaming but wept quietly instead. Thanks GOD, I made it. TH had to carry him as he was in pain. Luckily, when we made our next stop to a park where there were many pigeons on the ground, he somehow forgottent the pain and ran straight into the pigeons and chased after them happily. But when we were about to leave the place, he limped as if he was in pain. Cheeky!
I remember the first day he started schooling at Charis Shinning Star kindergarten in Taynton View, he was very excited as we told him how fun school will be. On that day, TH and I went to mom's place early in the morning and saw him to the school bus. After a minute or two, we headed to school to check him out. We looked anxiously for him among the crowd and found him crying terribly in the arm of a teacher there. Ouch! we felt so bad as we could imagined how terrified our poor boy was when he had to face such a crowd all on his own for the very first time. We were so sorry. Then on, we arranged for Kakak Endang to accompany him to school until he settled down. Still remember that Kakak told me he made Kakak promise to wait at the window outside the classroom so that he can see her.
As both of us had to work, we could only afford to bring him home every weekend. Sometimes, we miss him so much, we went all the way to Cheras after a quick dinner to spend some time with him.
Mom did a great job, she has taken my role. She shared her bed with him, told him bed time stories, sang to him, played with him. Mom would update me with his development without fail. I was told that my boy woke up very early ahead of all others and would wish everyone a good morning without fail. Kakak also played a part in nurturing him, helped him with his school work, played with him, read to him, etc.
He loved puzzles at young age and was very fast in getting them done. He could already solved a 1000pc puzzle at the age of 7. He also enjoyed reading books. He liked me reading to him and when I felt lazy at times, I purposely missed a page or two but he always knew it and asked me to flip back the page. Attentive boy!
As he is my first child, he was quite lonely when he came home. He always woke up earlier than me and spent his time alone at the writing desk in my room before waking me up after he got bored. He used to enjoy writing his father's name onto the magic tape and paste it onto almost all the items on his desk i.e. on ruler, staple, lamp, etc. Adorable!
Took him to Korea for holiday at the age of 5. It was a memorable trip for him indeed as he met with a minor accident in the airport toilet. He accidently zipped his penis and it was stucked in his jeans. He screamed so badly in pain that I had to calm him down and I remember clearly that I asked him to help me to help him. I told him to stop screaming as I panic if he screams. He immediately obliged and stopped screaming but wept quietly instead. Thanks GOD, I made it. TH had to carry him as he was in pain. Luckily, when we made our next stop to a park where there were many pigeons on the ground, he somehow forgottent the pain and ran straight into the pigeons and chased after them happily. But when we were about to leave the place, he limped as if he was in pain. Cheeky!
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
YJW
She's my living doll and I am so thankful to have her in my life. She's cute, adorable and lovely. She's very girlish and likes colors especially pink. She loves books and bookshop is her favourite place on earth. She melts my heart and add colors to my life. I like to hug and smell her like a baby doll. It feels so good. I am learning valuable life lessons from her, from her innocence, little things that I have long forgotten. She reminds me of simple things in life that need not be taken too seriously. She constantly reminds me of meaning of life. She makes me feel special that I have an ardent fan in her. She is so interested in all my endeavors, be it my houseworks, my closet, my bags, my skincare, my kitchen, etc. She is always keen to listen to my stories, grouses, complaints and not forgotten my long lectures. No matter how strict I can be with her, how many times I use the cane on her, she is still a die hard fan.
She adores me so much that she has been saying ' mummy pan nai' most of the time for fun since young. She means mummy is smart:)
At her age of 9 this year, 2010, she is maturing fast and tends to imitate my action, behaviour and attitude. I am cloning her character at this stage. I need to have good control of my own attitude but it is a bit too late now. She is becoming as fierce as me at home. Though she is talkative and playful at home, her teacher, Madam Thong commented that she has never seen her smile before and that she is so reserved in class. Yes, that's me. Hmm.... she is who I was during my childhood i.e. timid and shy.
However, she's much smarter than me. Got 10th placing out of 350 students in Standard 3 in her last exam, not bad. Since dad's demise, I have spent less time with her on her school work. To my blessings, Jin Shen helped me out, he did a good job and I must give credits to this dear boy of mine. Jo Wen is a fast learner and she is always enthusiatic.
Well, JW was taken care by a nanny named Ah Joo who lived in a small flat in Bandar Baru Selayang. Mother in law met her at the market and found out that she was a babysitter and introduced her to us. We used to visit her every night after dinner and spent an hour with her in the car. She returned home at the age of 3 together with my little 7 yr old JS.
At her age of 9 this year, 2010, she is maturing fast and tends to imitate my action, behaviour and attitude. I am cloning her character at this stage. I need to have good control of my own attitude but it is a bit too late now. She is becoming as fierce as me at home. Though she is talkative and playful at home, her teacher, Madam Thong commented that she has never seen her smile before and that she is so reserved in class. Yes, that's me. Hmm.... she is who I was during my childhood i.e. timid and shy.
However, she's much smarter than me. Got 10th placing out of 350 students in Standard 3 in her last exam, not bad. Since dad's demise, I have spent less time with her on her school work. To my blessings, Jin Shen helped me out, he did a good job and I must give credits to this dear boy of mine. Jo Wen is a fast learner and she is always enthusiatic.
Well, JW was taken care by a nanny named Ah Joo who lived in a small flat in Bandar Baru Selayang. Mother in law met her at the market and found out that she was a babysitter and introduced her to us. We used to visit her every night after dinner and spent an hour with her in the car. She returned home at the age of 3 together with my little 7 yr old JS.
Malacca Trip - June 2010
It's the 1st week of the 2-week school holiday in June and my family came back from Malacca just two days ago. We took a short break to this historical town. We visited the museum and JW is extremely keen and excited over each and every item there. She made sure that we slow down and not miss any of the exhibits there. I had difficulties in answering all her questions about the exhibits but luckily, my smart boy came to my rescue. JS has just covered the Malacca subject in school recently and he was more than happy to explain in details the Malacca history. A prince named Parameswara fled from Sumatra and discovered Malacca. Was so proud of my boy. We also visited the zoo which is quite huge and surprisingly, they have even more animals there than our National Zoo. It worths visiting. The kids enjoyed it very much though it was hot.
We stayed at this little preanakan boutique called Courtyard@Hereen which is just less than a year old. We booked a deluxe family room for $300 per night. It was clean, new and comfortable. We were basically in the middle of town and most places of interests were just within walking distance. The only set back was the hot weather, otherwise it was relaxing and yummy too.... love the nyonya food!
We bump into Kelly, ex Citibank staff at the Capitol Satay Celup where we had to queue for 1 hr but the food was simply good that we had our second round on the day we left Malacca. We were smart, we made an effort to be there 5mins before they open up @ 5pm and we got the 1st table and had a sumptous meal.
We took a ride on the revolving tower at Taming Sari to view the whole town at bird level. It was so unfamiliar, doesnt believe that it is Malacca in Malaysia. Magnificient view!
We stayed at this little preanakan boutique called Courtyard@Hereen which is just less than a year old. We booked a deluxe family room for $300 per night. It was clean, new and comfortable. We were basically in the middle of town and most places of interests were just within walking distance. The only set back was the hot weather, otherwise it was relaxing and yummy too.... love the nyonya food!
We bump into Kelly, ex Citibank staff at the Capitol Satay Celup where we had to queue for 1 hr but the food was simply good that we had our second round on the day we left Malacca. We were smart, we made an effort to be there 5mins before they open up @ 5pm and we got the 1st table and had a sumptous meal.
We took a ride on the revolving tower at Taming Sari to view the whole town at bird level. It was so unfamiliar, doesnt believe that it is Malacca in Malaysia. Magnificient view!
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
EQ on 26.8.2010
As usual, hubby got up earlier to prepare breakfast for the kids and by 6:15am, we left for school together. After dropping off JS and subsequently JW, we headed to FRIM for our morning walk. This has been our weekday routine for quite a while now. But this morning at FRIM, we had a bad conversation and ended up with a silent treatment. It was over the intended buy over of the Jalan Ipoh shop lot from his brothers. I was in the opinion of having proper black and white done right after the purchase but he intended to do the transfer 5 years later to avoid the stamp duty and penalty. Then, I demanded that he takes me home and that I didnt want to join him for the herbalife breakfast. He reluctantly sent me home though I knew he wanted me to join him. He didnt expect me to have an outburst to that extent. Back home, while doing the house chores, I recalled back and it was just yesterday, I lectured my JW about EQ. When I picked her up at school, she was jovial and happy until I asked her which of the two twins who is in the same class with her. Immediately, she had an outburst, claiming that she has told me many times before and that I should remember and not ask again. I iritated her and she just got upset there and then. So I told her that it is important to have a balance EQ to be successful in life. I explained to her what is EQ and suggested ways to control it. I suggested that she can either take a deep breath or by humming her favourite 'Doreamon Song' whenever she feels irritated. By the time she finish humming her song, she will forget the outburst and feel better. Then, I told her I will train her by asking her the same question whenever I pick her up and that she must learn to have a better control. Well, she bought it. We had a nice lunch at Old Town before headed home.
Now, back to my own reality, I am failing myself and eating my own words here. So when hubby called just now and asked if I want to join him for a japanese lunch, I forced myself to say yes. Reflecting on what transpires with JW had an impact on me and it is indeed a blessing. It's 12:16pm now, I am hoping that my EQ thing wont seep in and spoil my lunch later. Till then....
Now, back to my own reality, I am failing myself and eating my own words here. So when hubby called just now and asked if I want to join him for a japanese lunch, I forced myself to say yes. Reflecting on what transpires with JW had an impact on me and it is indeed a blessing. It's 12:16pm now, I am hoping that my EQ thing wont seep in and spoil my lunch later. Till then....
Friday, June 4, 2010
My Herbalife Experience
It was in March 2010 when my sister in law, Anne first introduced herbalife breakfast to hubby and family. We tried our 1st herbalife breakfast at the Good Health Nutrition Centre at Jalan Ipoh that is managed by 4 lady partners. TH and I went there for breakfast almost every morning after our morning walk at FRIM. We used to meet up with the rest of the family there. Father in law used to drop mother in law there after their morning exercise and we will send her home after breakfast. 1 set of herbalife breakfast comprises of 1 glass of tea followed by 1 glass of shake (blend Formula 1 powder with cooked grains, vegetables or fruits). They have different recipe each day, therefore the taste of the shake is different depending on the ingredients. Initially, I was not used to vanila flavour and opt for chocolate flavour all the time until a month later, I was urged by others to try the vanila as chocolate is too heaty for the body. True enough, I was able to accept the vanila flavour after a while.
In April 2010, I got to join the herbalife training in Genting Highlands with the consent of my hubby. I went with Anne on the pretext of accompanying her but in actual fact, I was so bored at home during that time. I needed a break. Four of us took a cab and off we went for the training. I befriended Shirley and Lee Bing. It was an eye opener for me to attend this type of training. There were almost thousands participants from Singapore, China, Taiwan, HK etc. There were continuous applauses, loud techno music, cheering and dancing all throughout the training. I salute the organiser for making the training one of its kind. You just wont afford to doze off in that atmosphere. Towards the evening, there was a party entitled 'Aloha Hawaii' where we have to dress up. There and then, Lee Bing, Annie, myself and few others bought our hawaiian dress from one of the shops in Genting for RM28 each. We had fun at the party with few others in the group, I remember Samantha, she's a small size petite lady who is a senior in herbalife business. She's a very experienced and knowledgeable lady who trains the rest. I shared room with Anne and it was fine.
After the training, Anne, Christy, Shirley and myself got together and decided to set up a similar business in either Selayang or Desa Park City. But things just didnt work out for me as I was too worried that I wont be able to cook well and was slow in digesting the whole business concept. Finally, three of them moved forward and set up 'Manna Nutrition Centre' in Selayang on 28 May 2010, Wesak Day. I was excited for them and surprisingly, without the pressure of being a partner, I was able to speak well and able to overcome the fear of approaching people to sell. Susan, Elsie and myself helped them out by distributing flyers to those who walk past the shop and talking to them and leading them into the shop. It was fun and satisfying especially when the people 'buy' us. They walked in, got their free body analysis and had their free tea.
I wish them great success!
In April 2010, I got to join the herbalife training in Genting Highlands with the consent of my hubby. I went with Anne on the pretext of accompanying her but in actual fact, I was so bored at home during that time. I needed a break. Four of us took a cab and off we went for the training. I befriended Shirley and Lee Bing. It was an eye opener for me to attend this type of training. There were almost thousands participants from Singapore, China, Taiwan, HK etc. There were continuous applauses, loud techno music, cheering and dancing all throughout the training. I salute the organiser for making the training one of its kind. You just wont afford to doze off in that atmosphere. Towards the evening, there was a party entitled 'Aloha Hawaii' where we have to dress up. There and then, Lee Bing, Annie, myself and few others bought our hawaiian dress from one of the shops in Genting for RM28 each. We had fun at the party with few others in the group, I remember Samantha, she's a small size petite lady who is a senior in herbalife business. She's a very experienced and knowledgeable lady who trains the rest. I shared room with Anne and it was fine.
After the training, Anne, Christy, Shirley and myself got together and decided to set up a similar business in either Selayang or Desa Park City. But things just didnt work out for me as I was too worried that I wont be able to cook well and was slow in digesting the whole business concept. Finally, three of them moved forward and set up 'Manna Nutrition Centre' in Selayang on 28 May 2010, Wesak Day. I was excited for them and surprisingly, without the pressure of being a partner, I was able to speak well and able to overcome the fear of approaching people to sell. Susan, Elsie and myself helped them out by distributing flyers to those who walk past the shop and talking to them and leading them into the shop. It was fun and satisfying especially when the people 'buy' us. They walked in, got their free body analysis and had their free tea.
I wish them great success!
The Year GOD called for Dad - 2009
It was sometime school holiday in May 2008 when I was away in Bangkok with my family, my dad life took a drastic change. Out of the blue, he had severe stomach pain and started to produce blood stained stool. Jong Luen was the only one around with him at that time. Chen Chyuan was away overseas on a job assignment while I was in Bangkok. Only when I returned, Jong Luen related the whole ordeal, how frightening it was for her to handle it all alone, not knowing what to do. Dad underwent test after test ie blood test, ultrasound, x-ray, scoop, etc. At that time, dad was still trying hard to convince himself and all of us that it was just a swelling lump in the body until surgeon Dr. Nandy smashed his hope.
Dad was diagnosed carcinosarcoma (two types of agressive cancer) in the duodenum. The cancerous growth was so huge that it had blocked the passage in the duodenum and caused the affected area to bleed. There was no option at all, immediate operation had to be done right away to SAVE him. Without indept understanding of the operation, dad went under the knife for almost 8 hours. Then gradually we learnt more about the Whipple Surgery that was done on dad. It is a major operation where parts of the body has to be removed ie stomach, pancreas, duodenum, liver, bile, etc. Though the cancerous growth has been removed, further tests confirmed that the cancer was very aggresive and dad was at the final stage. To add salt to injuries, the operated areas from the surgery just didnt join and there were leakages everywhere and the body system went haywire. Dad had to go under the knife again and again until his 4th operation. The leakage at the joints were finally sealed up but then, it was just too late. Cancer had made its way to the liver and lung. Dad was a tough strong man. He fought the battle with extreme courage and persistence. He believed in hope, he didnt give up the fight. He obediently underwent all his chemo sessions with Dr. Low though his body deteriorated in a shocking pace. He lost the battle. Water filled up his lung and needed to be drained out yet by another operation which is his last operation.
It was early morning on 29 April 2009, we received a call from ICU department, asking us to go over and it was the last of him. Dad was already struggling by then, vigorously shook his head, reluctant to give up the battle. Few days ago, dad told us that he dreamt that he was in a place that looks like a palace (or like Ah Pong's house!!) with gold colors and he was forced to sign a book by the guards there and he just didnt want to sign. It was so painful to witness his death in such a way. We took him home in hope that his spirit will rest in peace at home. My sister, kakak and I were with him in the ambulance. At precisely 12 noon, while my sister was playing his favourite song 'Memory' on the piano, he held his last breath and liquid started to pour out from his mouth. Dad left! He left with a good fight.
I can still recall the day before he left, the final moments with him in the ICU room when I hurriedly left for a wedding dinner with Thiam Hin and the kids in Sekinchan. He was on his bed with tubes all over. While I was at the door, bidding farewell, he looked at me straight into my eyes and gave me a warm smile, signalling that I should go ahead and leave for the dinner. That was his last smile. Till death I shall treasure my dad's last smile at me. I miss him dearly. I am now shedding tears recalling that moment and my intuition tells me that he is feeling for me too right now. It's raining! It's 1:38am on Christmas Eve, 24.12.2009
Dad was diagnosed carcinosarcoma (two types of agressive cancer) in the duodenum. The cancerous growth was so huge that it had blocked the passage in the duodenum and caused the affected area to bleed. There was no option at all, immediate operation had to be done right away to SAVE him. Without indept understanding of the operation, dad went under the knife for almost 8 hours. Then gradually we learnt more about the Whipple Surgery that was done on dad. It is a major operation where parts of the body has to be removed ie stomach, pancreas, duodenum, liver, bile, etc. Though the cancerous growth has been removed, further tests confirmed that the cancer was very aggresive and dad was at the final stage. To add salt to injuries, the operated areas from the surgery just didnt join and there were leakages everywhere and the body system went haywire. Dad had to go under the knife again and again until his 4th operation. The leakage at the joints were finally sealed up but then, it was just too late. Cancer had made its way to the liver and lung. Dad was a tough strong man. He fought the battle with extreme courage and persistence. He believed in hope, he didnt give up the fight. He obediently underwent all his chemo sessions with Dr. Low though his body deteriorated in a shocking pace. He lost the battle. Water filled up his lung and needed to be drained out yet by another operation which is his last operation.
It was early morning on 29 April 2009, we received a call from ICU department, asking us to go over and it was the last of him. Dad was already struggling by then, vigorously shook his head, reluctant to give up the battle. Few days ago, dad told us that he dreamt that he was in a place that looks like a palace (or like Ah Pong's house!!) with gold colors and he was forced to sign a book by the guards there and he just didnt want to sign. It was so painful to witness his death in such a way. We took him home in hope that his spirit will rest in peace at home. My sister, kakak and I were with him in the ambulance. At precisely 12 noon, while my sister was playing his favourite song 'Memory' on the piano, he held his last breath and liquid started to pour out from his mouth. Dad left! He left with a good fight.
I can still recall the day before he left, the final moments with him in the ICU room when I hurriedly left for a wedding dinner with Thiam Hin and the kids in Sekinchan. He was on his bed with tubes all over. While I was at the door, bidding farewell, he looked at me straight into my eyes and gave me a warm smile, signalling that I should go ahead and leave for the dinner. That was his last smile. Till death I shall treasure my dad's last smile at me. I miss him dearly. I am now shedding tears recalling that moment and my intuition tells me that he is feeling for me too right now. It's raining! It's 1:38am on Christmas Eve, 24.12.2009
Holiday to Guilin 2009 (by JW)
This is the first time my family and I took Air Asia flight AK102 to Guilin. Today is 13 Dec 2009. My flight departed at 6:45am and arrived at 10:30am. I am very happy and excited. We went to Yangshuo Mountain Retreat by cab. Wow! it was a beautiful small hotel with so many tall mountains around me and a nice river just in front of the hotel.
When we arrived, we had hot tea and some delicious cookies. Then we had bamboo rafting on the river and it was so fun. I like it very much. When we came back to the hotel, my brother and I were so tired and slept like a dead cow..... zzzzz. When I woke up, my mom said that she and father went to town without me. It was midnight, I continued to sleep.
The next day, it was another happy day. We hired a local lady to take us on a bicycle tour to Moon Hill, Banyan Tree and Water Cave. I could not ride a mountain bike. So that lady took me in a tandem bike. My brother had an accident. He rode too fast and fell off his bike. He injured his hand and leg but he was fine. Lucky boy! In the evening we went to see the Liu San Jie show. It was a big show on a river. I did not like it. Boring! I only wanted to rushed back to hotel and play computer games at the lobby with my brother. Tomorrow, I will leave this hotel, so sad:(
Today, when I woke up, I quickly went to lobby and continue to play computer games before we left the hotel. We went to Guiling by cab. When we reached, my brother and I went to the club lounge and continue to play computer games. Then I had lunch and took shower. At night we went for a river cruise. It was soooooo cold. ThenI returned to hotel and watched an interesting movie 'Doomsday' on HBO before sleep.
Today, when I woke up, I played computer games for a while. Then I go to the Reed Flute Cake. I meant cave, hahahah! We saw colorful lights in the cave. Then I went for a day cruise again, boring. Then I went back to hotel and played computer games again until midnight.
Today, when I woke up, I played computer games until we left for shopping. It was so freezing cold and boring too. My dad and mom always buy and buy things. We went to a shopping mall called Niko Niko Abunenek before returned to hotel and play computer games.
Today, we wished goodbye to Sheraton and left for Li An Lodge in Long Sheng. We went there by van. When we reached the parking area, we had to hike for 20mins before we reached Li An Lodge. But I didnt hike, I sat on a chair carried by two strong men. My dad paid them. I was so scared that the chair will fall and me too. When we reached, my brother and I again play computer games, hahaha. Then we went to our room. It is called Four Season and is the biggest room there. All the rooms are special and the hotel has no other guests except us. I like Four Season the most. We explored that place and we are so high up in the mountain. I was so scared to look down. Anyway, the whole Li An Lodge belongs to us because there was nobody else staying there at that time. Bill took care of us. He is a staff there. He is a nice and kind Chinese man. At night, we watched a HK movie together before sleep.
Today, when we woke up, Bill took us to see all the rooms in that hotel. All of them are very nice. About 12:00noon, we checked out and wished Bill goodbye. We checked in to another small hotel in Guilin called Eva Inn. We took a bath and at night, we went out to have a short walk around Guilin and had steamboat dinner at the 7th floor of Eva Inn.
Today, we checked out at 8:00am and wished goodbye to Guilin. Then we went to airport and took the plane and flew back to Malaysia. Home Sweet Home! The END
When we arrived, we had hot tea and some delicious cookies. Then we had bamboo rafting on the river and it was so fun. I like it very much. When we came back to the hotel, my brother and I were so tired and slept like a dead cow..... zzzzz. When I woke up, my mom said that she and father went to town without me. It was midnight, I continued to sleep.
The next day, it was another happy day. We hired a local lady to take us on a bicycle tour to Moon Hill, Banyan Tree and Water Cave. I could not ride a mountain bike. So that lady took me in a tandem bike. My brother had an accident. He rode too fast and fell off his bike. He injured his hand and leg but he was fine. Lucky boy! In the evening we went to see the Liu San Jie show. It was a big show on a river. I did not like it. Boring! I only wanted to rushed back to hotel and play computer games at the lobby with my brother. Tomorrow, I will leave this hotel, so sad:(
Today, when I woke up, I quickly went to lobby and continue to play computer games before we left the hotel. We went to Guiling by cab. When we reached, my brother and I went to the club lounge and continue to play computer games. Then I had lunch and took shower. At night we went for a river cruise. It was soooooo cold. ThenI returned to hotel and watched an interesting movie 'Doomsday' on HBO before sleep.
Today, when I woke up, I played computer games for a while. Then I go to the Reed Flute Cake. I meant cave, hahahah! We saw colorful lights in the cave. Then I went for a day cruise again, boring. Then I went back to hotel and played computer games again until midnight.
Today, when I woke up, I played computer games until we left for shopping. It was so freezing cold and boring too. My dad and mom always buy and buy things. We went to a shopping mall called Niko Niko Abunenek before returned to hotel and play computer games.
Today, we wished goodbye to Sheraton and left for Li An Lodge in Long Sheng. We went there by van. When we reached the parking area, we had to hike for 20mins before we reached Li An Lodge. But I didnt hike, I sat on a chair carried by two strong men. My dad paid them. I was so scared that the chair will fall and me too. When we reached, my brother and I again play computer games, hahaha. Then we went to our room. It is called Four Season and is the biggest room there. All the rooms are special and the hotel has no other guests except us. I like Four Season the most. We explored that place and we are so high up in the mountain. I was so scared to look down. Anyway, the whole Li An Lodge belongs to us because there was nobody else staying there at that time. Bill took care of us. He is a staff there. He is a nice and kind Chinese man. At night, we watched a HK movie together before sleep.
Today, when we woke up, Bill took us to see all the rooms in that hotel. All of them are very nice. About 12:00noon, we checked out and wished Bill goodbye. We checked in to another small hotel in Guilin called Eva Inn. We took a bath and at night, we went out to have a short walk around Guilin and had steamboat dinner at the 7th floor of Eva Inn.
Today, we checked out at 8:00am and wished goodbye to Guilin. Then we went to airport and took the plane and flew back to Malaysia. Home Sweet Home! The END
Thursday, June 3, 2010
DEC 2009
At this time of writing @ precisely 1:40pm on 10.12.09, I am at the library in Selayang with my daughter and my son is away on his very 1st school trip to Penang, Langkawi and Cameron. He will be back tomorrow on 11.12.09 (my hubby, Yap Thiam Hin's birthday). What inspires me to write this is my sister's scrap book containing memories of dad's passing.
Yes, I need to start writing because these days, my black box is deteriorating and I suddenly feel that time is not slowing down and it's like with a split second, my mother left me and next my dad was also taken away. I just needed to write in hope that by the time I reach my golden year, the valuable moments in life will not fade away. It will be so sad not able to recall the fond memories then. With this, I hope I can complete my life with no regrets but pride.
I came into this world on 12.4.60 at 7pm at the Chinese Maternity Hospital in Kuala Lumpur. I am the 1st child in the family and I am the jewel at home where mom and dad adore me and shower me with love all the time. Then, came my sister and brother into the family in 1972 and 1978. My grandmother, Yong Kwai Fong was with us until her old age.
During school days, I recall mom used to wake up extra early just to prepare my breakfast and even prepare my lunch box. She will then walk me out to the main road and wait with me in the dark for my school bus, I was just too precious to her. I also recall memories when mom used to spend time with me in the bed, giving me aeroplane rides with her leg. I also used to share with her excitedly whenever she used to take out her favourite drawer to check out her precious items. Let's see, she has nice pendants, pouch, wallets, old photos, watches, souvenirs from oversea trips, etc. Then, she would tell me the details of each and every item over and over again and that she will give those few items to me when I get older. I was so attached to mom then that at one point, I told myself I just cannot live with mom in this world.
As for dad, he was not as lucky as me. I remember that he was from a poor upbringing where he used to stay with his aunt and eventually with mom's family who took pity of him back then. Didnt really know why his parents were not with him then. He struggled to make a living when he reached adulthood. He was a school teacher before he worked as a clerk in Tai Nam Tin Factory. He normally stay behind after work and was the last to leave the office. He always take initiative to make sure that all lights and fans are properly turn down. Soon, his boss noticed him and decided to give him opportunities. He then had the chance to climb the corporate ladder. He eventually set up his business jointly with public listed company, Yee Lee and was the Director in Can Pac Sdn Bhd. He worked hard and he succeeded in his career. However, he somehow lost his life to his success. When he was on duty, he had to entertain clients so much so that he was addicted to alcohol. Those years when his career went uphill, he ended up drunk on most nights. Until when he was getting old, at about 60's he decided to call it a quit and turn away from alcohol for good. By then, it was just too late, he died of carcinosarcoma (two types of aggresive cancer) at the duedonum. He left me on 20 April 2009.
I was not as close to him as to mom but I know he loves me dearly. He invested his savings in organ and piano lessons for me and my sister for almost ten years, drove us to Yamaha Music School in Jalan Campbell and patiently waited there for us. Mom told us it was dad's career insurance for us, in case we cannot find a good job in future, we can still make a living from teaching music. It was so thoughtful of him.
In nature, I was a naive and reserve girl. I was always protected and loved so much so that I just need not make any attempt to learn to be independent. It was just too comfortable and good. I was also blessed with mom's big family @ Chow's family where I have many cousins to keep me company during childhood. My best cousin sister, Helen Wong Siow Kwan used to share my bed and we had great time pillow talking on most weekends and also when mom followed dad on business trip overseas. I was not left alone. Helen was the one who secretly enlightened me about sex. She was my childhood buddy. We went for organ lessons together with my sister on every Sunday at Yamaha.
Need to pen off now, Jo Wen is late for her tuition at 3:30pm.
Life is so unpredictable. Just last Friday, my friend, Choy Wan met a freak accident. She was pounched by her neighbour's rotweler while she was doing gardening in front of her house with her maid. Though the dog didnt bite her but the impact of her fall had her landed in ICU at UMH. Surgeon had to operate on her head twice and at this point, she has yet to gain consciousness. It was a blow to the family. Life will be tough for Kok Cheong and the 3 kids at home. I hope GOD will take mercy and grant her a speedy recovery.
I can still remember well a day before mom left. It was 28.3.2007, a Sunday. We had our favourite porridge in Kajang together ie mom, dad, Kakak Endang, my family and brother's family . Jong Luen couldnt join us that day. After lunch, I remembered when we headed to the car, I looked behind and saw mom walked last, she was slow and looked haggard. I went back few steps and took her by her hand to the car. We went to a nursery next, to buy potted plants for their new house in Sungai Long. Mom waited in the car for almost an hour. She took few packets of peanut from her bag and offered to Thiam Hin while waiting. She also took mopiko from her bag for Jin Shen who had mosquito bite then. Later, we stopped over at Old Town in Sungai Long for coffee. Mom had her last favourite curry mee there. We talked about arranging steamboat for dad's birthday next Saturday. Thinking back, little do I know that that was the last of mom when she saw me at the door, bidding farewell. She asked me to take some oranges home but I politely declined then. That very morning, when I handed over two sets of bed sheet which she asked me to buy for her, she paid me two pieces of RM50 note (which I will treasure and keep forever in memory of her). I thanks GOD for every remembrance her.
Past midnight that day, at wee hours about 4am the next day, on 29.3.2007, I remember that I had goosebump in the middle of my sleep and I was feeling weird. Within the next hour, my brother called and he was crying terribly on the phone. Mom left! I was stunned and emotionless, somehow my subconcious anticipated it. Mom had complicated health problem and was seeing doctors at UKMH regularly. I used to drive her for her appointments. I knew she was weak with high blood pressure and high blood sugar. I used to scold her for not able to help herself and control her diet. She always says, as long as she can eat she eats and it eating cause her death, she doesnt mind. I kept giving her pressure and frightened her by telling her the consequences of ending up in hospital for the rest of her life. I still do not know whether I did her a favour or I just cause unnecessary upset to her.
I didnt understand her then. I always blame her for not interested or keen at most things like passing most tasks to kakak and couldnt bother to know where things are kept at home. It was only during her funeral did I realized that I was so wrong. It was not that she didnt care. She was too weak, no matter how much she wanted to be involved, she just didnt have the energy.
My bond with mom is so strong and special that I really believe she left behind a song for me in memory of her. I got her message; that song gave me peace and comfort throughout the entire ordeal. That song titled 'YOU LOVE ME' by Wu Bai. Thiam Hin played this song for the first time in his car and because it was a new song and he likes it, he played it repeatedly at that time when we made our journey to and fro Sungai Long for funeral services. It is amazing that somehow, unconciously not only me but my whole family were conditioned in a way that when we hear that song, we remember Mom. It was only a month later did I realize that special song from mom when my 7 year old daughter one day told me that she was scared when we heard that song again. At that moment, all of us in the family know why she was scared. She remembered Mom! Then only I knew Mom left me a gift.
I learnt many valuable lessons throughout my life and I am still learning. It aint easy especially when dealing with 'change' but I have to stay positive in order to see me through life. I am a lucky soul. Most people I come across in life are my 'kwai yan'. Even my adversaries will eventually become my friends most of the time. I have a balance character. I live a simple life.
At this point of writing, I am at the club lounge of Sheraton Guilin at 4:40pm. My hubby, son and daughter are busy at the computers.
We were at Yangshuo Mountain Retreat for 2 days before arriving here in Guilin. Yangshuo is truly the best place on earth by far. It is extremely beautiful with mountains and river surrounding it. It is so full of nature and peace. I had a splendid time and will definitely return someday. In fact, this little retreat welcomes guests to volunteer giving English lessons to the children in nearby villages. Probably I can offer myself when I return, maybe with Susan. We had a bamboo rafting trip down the river just in front of our retreat in a cooling weather (4C) and had great fun. Next day, we went for a countryside bike tour to Moon Hill, Banyan Tree and Water Cave. Had a great day too.
Overall, my Guilin holiday is wonderful. The only shortcoming is that I failed myself in terms of diet. I just enjoyed food too much and over ate. Salute to CALORIES!!!
Yes, I need to start writing because these days, my black box is deteriorating and I suddenly feel that time is not slowing down and it's like with a split second, my mother left me and next my dad was also taken away. I just needed to write in hope that by the time I reach my golden year, the valuable moments in life will not fade away. It will be so sad not able to recall the fond memories then. With this, I hope I can complete my life with no regrets but pride.
I came into this world on 12.4.60 at 7pm at the Chinese Maternity Hospital in Kuala Lumpur. I am the 1st child in the family and I am the jewel at home where mom and dad adore me and shower me with love all the time. Then, came my sister and brother into the family in 1972 and 1978. My grandmother, Yong Kwai Fong was with us until her old age.
During school days, I recall mom used to wake up extra early just to prepare my breakfast and even prepare my lunch box. She will then walk me out to the main road and wait with me in the dark for my school bus, I was just too precious to her. I also recall memories when mom used to spend time with me in the bed, giving me aeroplane rides with her leg. I also used to share with her excitedly whenever she used to take out her favourite drawer to check out her precious items. Let's see, she has nice pendants, pouch, wallets, old photos, watches, souvenirs from oversea trips, etc. Then, she would tell me the details of each and every item over and over again and that she will give those few items to me when I get older. I was so attached to mom then that at one point, I told myself I just cannot live with mom in this world.
As for dad, he was not as lucky as me. I remember that he was from a poor upbringing where he used to stay with his aunt and eventually with mom's family who took pity of him back then. Didnt really know why his parents were not with him then. He struggled to make a living when he reached adulthood. He was a school teacher before he worked as a clerk in Tai Nam Tin Factory. He normally stay behind after work and was the last to leave the office. He always take initiative to make sure that all lights and fans are properly turn down. Soon, his boss noticed him and decided to give him opportunities. He then had the chance to climb the corporate ladder. He eventually set up his business jointly with public listed company, Yee Lee and was the Director in Can Pac Sdn Bhd. He worked hard and he succeeded in his career. However, he somehow lost his life to his success. When he was on duty, he had to entertain clients so much so that he was addicted to alcohol. Those years when his career went uphill, he ended up drunk on most nights. Until when he was getting old, at about 60's he decided to call it a quit and turn away from alcohol for good. By then, it was just too late, he died of carcinosarcoma (two types of aggresive cancer) at the duedonum. He left me on 20 April 2009.
I was not as close to him as to mom but I know he loves me dearly. He invested his savings in organ and piano lessons for me and my sister for almost ten years, drove us to Yamaha Music School in Jalan Campbell and patiently waited there for us. Mom told us it was dad's career insurance for us, in case we cannot find a good job in future, we can still make a living from teaching music. It was so thoughtful of him.
In nature, I was a naive and reserve girl. I was always protected and loved so much so that I just need not make any attempt to learn to be independent. It was just too comfortable and good. I was also blessed with mom's big family @ Chow's family where I have many cousins to keep me company during childhood. My best cousin sister, Helen Wong Siow Kwan used to share my bed and we had great time pillow talking on most weekends and also when mom followed dad on business trip overseas. I was not left alone. Helen was the one who secretly enlightened me about sex. She was my childhood buddy. We went for organ lessons together with my sister on every Sunday at Yamaha.
Need to pen off now, Jo Wen is late for her tuition at 3:30pm.
Life is so unpredictable. Just last Friday, my friend, Choy Wan met a freak accident. She was pounched by her neighbour's rotweler while she was doing gardening in front of her house with her maid. Though the dog didnt bite her but the impact of her fall had her landed in ICU at UMH. Surgeon had to operate on her head twice and at this point, she has yet to gain consciousness. It was a blow to the family. Life will be tough for Kok Cheong and the 3 kids at home. I hope GOD will take mercy and grant her a speedy recovery.
I can still remember well a day before mom left. It was 28.3.2007, a Sunday. We had our favourite porridge in Kajang together ie mom, dad, Kakak Endang, my family and brother's family . Jong Luen couldnt join us that day. After lunch, I remembered when we headed to the car, I looked behind and saw mom walked last, she was slow and looked haggard. I went back few steps and took her by her hand to the car. We went to a nursery next, to buy potted plants for their new house in Sungai Long. Mom waited in the car for almost an hour. She took few packets of peanut from her bag and offered to Thiam Hin while waiting. She also took mopiko from her bag for Jin Shen who had mosquito bite then. Later, we stopped over at Old Town in Sungai Long for coffee. Mom had her last favourite curry mee there. We talked about arranging steamboat for dad's birthday next Saturday. Thinking back, little do I know that that was the last of mom when she saw me at the door, bidding farewell. She asked me to take some oranges home but I politely declined then. That very morning, when I handed over two sets of bed sheet which she asked me to buy for her, she paid me two pieces of RM50 note (which I will treasure and keep forever in memory of her). I thanks GOD for every remembrance her.
Past midnight that day, at wee hours about 4am the next day, on 29.3.2007, I remember that I had goosebump in the middle of my sleep and I was feeling weird. Within the next hour, my brother called and he was crying terribly on the phone. Mom left! I was stunned and emotionless, somehow my subconcious anticipated it. Mom had complicated health problem and was seeing doctors at UKMH regularly. I used to drive her for her appointments. I knew she was weak with high blood pressure and high blood sugar. I used to scold her for not able to help herself and control her diet. She always says, as long as she can eat she eats and it eating cause her death, she doesnt mind. I kept giving her pressure and frightened her by telling her the consequences of ending up in hospital for the rest of her life. I still do not know whether I did her a favour or I just cause unnecessary upset to her.
I didnt understand her then. I always blame her for not interested or keen at most things like passing most tasks to kakak and couldnt bother to know where things are kept at home. It was only during her funeral did I realized that I was so wrong. It was not that she didnt care. She was too weak, no matter how much she wanted to be involved, she just didnt have the energy.
My bond with mom is so strong and special that I really believe she left behind a song for me in memory of her. I got her message; that song gave me peace and comfort throughout the entire ordeal. That song titled 'YOU LOVE ME' by Wu Bai. Thiam Hin played this song for the first time in his car and because it was a new song and he likes it, he played it repeatedly at that time when we made our journey to and fro Sungai Long for funeral services. It is amazing that somehow, unconciously not only me but my whole family were conditioned in a way that when we hear that song, we remember Mom. It was only a month later did I realize that special song from mom when my 7 year old daughter one day told me that she was scared when we heard that song again. At that moment, all of us in the family know why she was scared. She remembered Mom! Then only I knew Mom left me a gift.
I learnt many valuable lessons throughout my life and I am still learning. It aint easy especially when dealing with 'change' but I have to stay positive in order to see me through life. I am a lucky soul. Most people I come across in life are my 'kwai yan'. Even my adversaries will eventually become my friends most of the time. I have a balance character. I live a simple life.
At this point of writing, I am at the club lounge of Sheraton Guilin at 4:40pm. My hubby, son and daughter are busy at the computers.
We were at Yangshuo Mountain Retreat for 2 days before arriving here in Guilin. Yangshuo is truly the best place on earth by far. It is extremely beautiful with mountains and river surrounding it. It is so full of nature and peace. I had a splendid time and will definitely return someday. In fact, this little retreat welcomes guests to volunteer giving English lessons to the children in nearby villages. Probably I can offer myself when I return, maybe with Susan. We had a bamboo rafting trip down the river just in front of our retreat in a cooling weather (4C) and had great fun. Next day, we went for a countryside bike tour to Moon Hill, Banyan Tree and Water Cave. Had a great day too.
Overall, my Guilin holiday is wonderful. The only shortcoming is that I failed myself in terms of diet. I just enjoyed food too much and over ate. Salute to CALORIES!!!
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