Ching Ming 2012

6.4.12 - Today is Friday and it's Good Friday.  It's school holiday for JS and three of us made a trip to Nilai to pay respect to mom, dad, tai ma and popo during this Ching Ming.  My dear boy has been very helpful today, he accompanied me to the market to get fruits and flowers early in the morning.  We had breakfast at Batu Caves before leaving for Nilai at 11am.  It was a windy day today and the visit has been a good one.  TH, JS and myself worked together hand in hand, lighting up the candles and joss stick, laying the fruits (mango, banana and orange) and flowers, praying togehter, using two coins to check if they are done with the food, a suspicious method introduced by TH.  Both of them were impatient and flipped the coins over and over again. Haiz. I was made to leave that place hurriedly.  Actually, I wanted to stay longer to spend time with mom and dad.  I have so much to say to them. I hope they will see me in my dream tonite.  I reallly miss them much.

Though I nagged JS throughout the trip today, I am actually thankful to him for his help and obedience. Actually, his friend Brandon invites him to his house in Sri Hartamas today for a football game and another friend, Yong Ren invites him to hang out in Mid Valley.  JS really wanted to go to Brandon house but he gave in to me and accompanied me.  He's my boy:)

I want to show him what Ching Ming is all about but the joke is I actually dont really know much.  I am just learning.  I want to do it every year.  I hope I can bring JW too but she has school today.

Though I am not sure if mom and dad really show up, it doesnt matter too much.  Believing that they are around somewhere watching over me as I look at their tombstone makes me feel good.  I feel their presence. I miss them so much.  I asked them for forgiveness for my wrongdoings, I thanked them for their love and blessings, I shared my little secrets and I asked for 3 wishes today.  I pray that TH will not be subjected to further work stress so that he can have good health.  I pray that JS will do well in his PMR this year.  I pray that my chemistry with JS will improve.