Friday, December 6, 2013

Wake Up Call

21.2.13 - Ever since I read who I was back then according to my old diaries, I was like awaken from a long sleep. Today I felt great knowing who I was and that makes me realize that I was moving away from being myself. I was not myself anymore.  I change for worse. I take life too seriously. I rush life. I forget my belief and faith in GOD.  I forget to share. I thanks God for the simple life I used to have in my teens.  I can be who I used to be.  I need to slow down.

Currently we are watching an astro drama on tv entitled Check Reality about a young urban teenager spending 2 weeks in a rural village.  He had difficulties in adapting to the simple life in village with no electronic gadget and just plain nature.  The villagers are extremely kind and good.  Their kids are well mannered and humble lots. They have great compassion, patience and generosity.  They take life gracefully.  They are like one big family wholook after each other in the village.  It inspires me. It feels great to be unconditionally helpful and kind. Good humans.

Great discoveries, my old diaries 1988-1989

Today I found my old diaries of years 1988 and 1989 way back that were abandoned in my closet for a long long time.  Reading what transpired backi then gave me a deep insight of who Iwas and what my teenage life was back then.  I almost forgotten so many things in my life. I was also made to realize that I have changed drastically over the years.

I was a simple and carefree teenage girl who strongly believe in GOD.  Those two years,  it was all about my days at Stamford Ladies College and working life with the Koreans in Taihan Electric Wire Co. Ltd.  I had packed schedule all the time.  I was a busy student and a happy girl enjoying every moment of life. I had many friends who spent most time with me.  Together we went on trips, attended classes, spent time in public library together, movie, shopping, facial, etc.  I was likeable and kind of popular too.

I had great bonding with my ex boss, Mr. Park Tae Beom.  He liked me a lot and took good care of me at work.  The day when he got posted back to Korea for good, I cried and I jotted down in the diary, claiming it the saddest day in my life.  Gosh! I almost forgotten that too. Then came EK Lee, another good boss who liked me too and we shared a lot in the office. I still remember the day when he locked the office door and he taught me how to play poker, plain poker, nothing dirty.  I was fond of him too and enjoyed every minute working with him.  He was not my boss, he was my friend!

From the diaries, I had precious recollection of events that I have forgotten.  I have changed and reading about how I used to be, I begin to discover myself once again.  I used to share a lot of things with friends, famiy and even my bosses. I lent my car to my boss.  I enjoyed giving car lift to friends and families. I ran errand for mom after work.  I bought bus tickets for friends for trips. I bought cake for friends birthday. I bought souvenirs for bosses.  I prayed for friends in trouble.

In one of the testimonial, Mrs See of Stamford, wrote about me being pleasant and a very popular member in the class. I dont remember being popular but I do have many friends who were always with me then.  I was close to Hua Yen, Adeline, G.Hong, Shirley and Soo Lai. The rest would be Charanjeet, Magdeline, Kar Ling, Michelle, Jodie and Lucy from Sarawak. At that time, we also hang out with some guys like LSK, WTH, Mata, Eddie, etc.  I actually mingled with the guys and seemed to enjoy their company too. There were a little mutual liking for each other then but nothing worked out as I was destined to meet YTH later in life, I guess, my blessing.

Oh yes, other than these two diaries, I found two written journals.There are about the arrival of JS into my life and a Valentine day back then. I really wish I can retrieve more but too bad, nothing more. That's why I have to thanks my two darlings for introducing the blogspot to me.  I have been writing again and this blog belongs to me and my kids.  It will be a wonderful gift for us.


Handover of Saujana

5.2.13 - I am now in Saujana collecting keys to our shplot no 2.  While penning this, TH is off to Central Mart to buy locks for the garbage compartment.  I am beginning to appreciate his efforts and good traits after watching him rub the stubborn stains on the floor diligently with soap and then wiped the dirt on the toilet bowl just now. I was actually walking up and down, with a paper in hand fanning myself while he was doing these and not long, I even hurried him to leave the place as it wasstuffy.  Told him to get Ah Keong's workers to clean them after installing the grill door for us.  But he just said, these are just small matters, no need them to do.  Apart from feeling a little guilty, I adore him once again.  And the best part is he didnt expect me to do anything there but just accompany him.  He's satisfied. Love my man!

As we age, I find that TH ages better. He's still fit and looks good. I must catch up with him.  I have just broken my record with my weight shot up the highest ever at 58kg.  Haiz, happy+pampered+lots of love=calories. Some more, I just cut short my hair and I hate it. My self esteem is at the lowest right now.

CNY 2013

10.2.13 - Today is the first day of CNY and I had a great day together with my family.  In the morning, we went over to parents in law house to serve tea to the elderly at home and had a simple brunch.  Then we spent an hour there before we headed home.  We had tea in the patio together with Lassie and TH lit up the firecracker to scare away bad omens and welcome good fortune. That was the belief.  Towards the evening, we went over to CC house.  The kids went across the playground while the rest and myself  had a game of mahjong.  TH was left alone most of the time watching TV and dozed off in between.  I am grateful for his patience.  I was enjoying myself at the mahjong table while the kids too were enjoying themselves at the playground.  In fact, bro and ML did a pretty good job in decorating the house.  It was in the mood for CNY. I am grateful to my brother for inviting us to his lovely house.   He also bought some firework and firecracker and lit it up for the kids after dinner.  At that moment, I felt dad's presence and he was smiling at us. We ordered pizza for a quick dinner before we continued with our mahjong.  It was about 10pm, we made a move.  Back home, we packed for our Hatyai trip tomorrow and also booked our tickets online fro a CNY blockbuster at TGV Kepong tomorrow afternoon.  Well, we will drive to Hatyai tomorrow night about 10pm.  After the show, TH and I plan to take a good nap before we hit the road.  I hope we will have a good holiday together. I love my family and I thanks GOD for every moments with them in my life. That includes my sis and bro too, they are wonderful people.

Our Cars Havoc

4.2.13 - It wasnt a good new year after all.  I am now under a shaded stall with TH as he is now munching his lunch.  We are here waiting to get our cars fixed. It was totally a mishap.  Both our cars were damaged in this supposingly auspicious new year. Nah, not so.  Our dear BMW windscreen were hit by a stone while on the road and the little crack has spread into a long snake, a reminder that this year belongs to a snake indeed. We had to fixed it for our Hatyai trip next week.  As for our dear MB, we actually paid for it. We paid $10 for trimming services for our garden lawn and one of the side window got shattered as a result.  Haiz.....

This morning I woke up late, was not feeling well.  Taken a flu pill last night.  TH woke me up when he's back from FRIM and hurried me to follow him to the workshop.  He drove MB while I followed from behind in BMW.  When I was tailing him, I was actually feeling grateful to have him in my life.  I was counting my blessing at that moment naturally.  He is my guardian angel and I am loved and protected all the time. As MB damage is more severe and risk further damage along the way, he chose to drive it. I was also worried about him.  Hmm, hopefully these mishaps will rid some of the bad omens in store in the year. The windscreen cost $3200 while side window cost $490.

Well, mishaps like these dont happen often, touch wood, so I will try to see this in a positive way, hehehe.  I will try my luck at 2955, wish me luck.

Nag Nag and Nag

1.2.13 - Last night TH was so sick of me that he 'shooo' me away. He asked me to go up and sleep.  I was nagging almost the whole day, I nag my kids and by the end of the day, he was not exempted.  It was all about peanut matters, and I was just so good at nagging until I was thinking I actually enjoyed it. It was about things like TH didnt soak his plate after dinner and he put the oily spatula into the clean rice container, he didnt switch off the lights and air cond in the living room after watching the news.  He asked JS to leave the air cond on in the study room while he was watching news in the lliving room.  Hmm, must I be nosy or not. Perhaps I should just closed an eye and all will be happy. Or could I have reasoned out nicely to him to have his understanding and cooperation. Hmm, I failed miserably.....

Thursday, December 5, 2013

Bump into a Friend

18.1.13 - Today TH went outstation to collect CNY cookies and buy seafood items. So I was alone today but my schedule was tight too.  Had to go JW school in the morning to collect the $100 student aid from Government.  Made an effort to go earlier and bought 2 magnum ice cream for her and her good friend, Madeline. Was too early and waited in the car for a while until time's up. Met JW at the canteen.  She was happy with her friends.  They sat together at a specific area at the canteen.  While she was having her lunch, I proceeded to the small hall for briefing.  A politician from the Government introduced himself and asked us to vote for him in the upcoming election. Hmm, so political. Money politics in no good. After briefing, we adjourned to the classroom to collect cash.  In the hall, I met Tan Po Chin, a former colleague in BP.  We chatted throughout and in no time, we collected our cash.  By the way, I noticed that JW is likeable in class. Most of her good friends sat near her and she is indeed happy in class. At the moment, I am truly happy for her.

Since P. Chin has so much to share with me, we adjourned to Old Town Selayang for further chat.  We have so much in common, we both stay in Selayang Indah and our kids are in the same class, in the same tuition centre at Mega Maju and both of us share the same hope, that is for our kids to get into Wesley next year.

After being a home maker for so long, I always thought that a day out with friends over tea would be a blessing. But after tea today, I realized I wont want to do it again.  It was different from what I thought.  It was a social chat and I didnt really enjoy it.  Perhaps I am a Melancholy and I am what I am. I prefer a boring day with TH.  I am missing him now.

By the way, I read somewhere that in order to sit down and do nothing u have to be on top of the ladder of success. Meaning I should count my blessing that I am able to do that, because I am already on top. Gee, a sweet consolation to myself......

Funny TH

14.1.13 - TH was so funny yesterday.  I was at the table with him in our study room with me browsing on the ipad while he was reading a magazine. When I took a glance at him, I naturally burst into laughter. He was unusually weird. He was wearing his long sighted glasses, the 'lau foo jer' style and holding a pen on his hand, pointing it on each word as he read on. Then he would circle a few sentences as though he was memorizing them for an important exam. He was trying hard to pay attention to what he reads. As he is not one who is fond of books, it is understandable that he has difficulties in reading. He couldnt focus and he was trying to help himself with his method. When I burst out laughing, he was embarrassed and quickly closed his magazine.  Then I apologized for my outburst and encouraged him to read on. I promised I would not laugh at him again.  Then only he continued with his funny method once again. He's adorable.  He took the initiative to subscribe the monthly magazine about properties in Malaysia.

Family Reunion Dinner 2013

8.1.13 - Well, I like to jot down the dinner that I had Last Sat @ Hee Loi Tang.  It was a reunion dinner organized by Wai J. She came back with her family and so did Siew Ying and family  and Mun Kean and family too.  It has been more than 20 years since we last met Ah Kean.  We had 9 tables and there were more than 11 families altogether.  We were all very happy to see each other especially the seniors. They really caught up with age, especially 5th Aunt.

Jimmy compiled and put up a nice slide show with all preciouys photos that we all emailed to him.  Ken was the MC of the night.  Lastly we took a group photo and it was almost a perfect event except......

Well, an unpleasant event took place that night when our dear W.Soon lost control of himself.  He tried to be mischievous by meddling with Ah Pong's glasses. Then when Ah Pong scolded him, he made a fuss and acted violently. He was so bad tempered that he threw a metal kettle into the crowd and tried to put up a fight with Ah Pong.  He had to be dragged away and when we thought he had calmed down, he came in and threw glasses at the stage when Ah Pong was taking his family photos. It was a shame and he might hurt someone with his impulsive act.  Poor 5th Aunt shed tears despite our consolation.  The next day, he apologized in his FB but not remorse coz he still put the blame on Ah Pong for initiated his act.  Poor thing, I guess he is a man loaded with so much pressure and stress. During karaoke, he and his sister Lock Sow went on stage to render a song and they cried badly in memory of their beloved niece (Nancy's daughter) who was drown recently during a trip. They were sensitive and emotional.  I hope they can get over it soon. Lord, please bless them.......

Trip to Ipoh

1.1.13 - Today is new year and I am recalling the trip to Ipoh last weekend with my family and friends.   There were many of us in 8 cars i.e. my familly, Cheri's, Joanne's and her cousin sister, Choy Wan's, Jeremy (H.Own brother from US), Ah Aik, Lau Ser and Kau Kia. Altogether there were 36 of us.  It wass a big group and Cheri is the organizer. The trip was quite ordinary. Oops! Not forgotten, Ah Lai went with us too, it's 37 of us.  It was his birthday on 29th and that night we celebrated with him at the Hot Lips Karaoke. In fact, according to TH, he was forced to join us. He is still single and forcing him to spend the holiday with 8 families could be a sin.  Anyhow, he was a sport.

Cheri had a mission too, her youngest son, J.Kai is going to stay back in Ipoh for his secondary education.  Funnily, the young boy made no complaint and was not afraid at all.  He did poorly in his UPSR and couldnt find a good school back in KL.

So, back to the trip, we went to the Tambun Lost World and it was also just an ordinary day.  The wives gathered for some card games while the husbands and kids enjoyed themselves in the water. But for me, I was stuck with my family. Stuck means I practically couldnt leave no matter how much I wished to join the wives for card games.  So, it was just quite an ordinary day. For dinner, we walked to the nearby Ipoh Chicken Rice.  It was nice though a little oily.  Not forgotten too, we had super delicious dim sum at Ming Court Restaurant on the last day. Then, we made our way to Tualang for prawn.  JS did a good job on navigating the way and the group followed our car all the way to the restaurant.  Lau Ser recommended a smaller restaurant there instead of the famous one and it was nice too.  The tofu is so memorable, yummy!

27.12.12

Tonight I made my gal shed tears in bed.  As school will begin next week, I insisted that they should sleep early at 10pm as they normally did during school days.  However,  due to much pleading from them, I extended the time and we all finally went up at 11pm.  But my gal still lingered around on my bed pestering me.  She asked if she needs to do an essay tomorrow.  Told her she need not and she continued to ask why. Told her if she wants to do, then good.  She said she didnt want and again asked why she need not do so.  I was all fired up, so I scolded her for being irritating and told her to do the essay tomorrow.  She walked back to her room quietly and shed tears.  Hmm.....

Then, TH told me that it could be that she didnt want to sleep yet, so she tried to strike a conversation with me.  Maybe that is true but I have given her extra time and I expected her to quickly get into bed.  Though she cannot sleep, she still have to follow the proper bedtime as enough sleep is very important for a developing child. I asked TH to go over and tell her that she need not do the essay tomorrow.  I really want her to have a good night sleep.

At dinner, I told both of them to remember tgo label their names on his Note II and her tupperware bottle before school starts.  They acknowledged and when they reached home, they forgot all about it.  I was a little disappointed.  Hinted to them but they just forgot completely. I gave chance to recall within an hours time. If they still cant remember when time is up, they will have to surrender all electronic gadgets for tomorrow.  It was a little funny and amusing seeing them guessing together.  Even TH helped them with his wild guesses.  I stayed firm and put up a strict front.  Up to the very last minute, JW suddenly mentioed tupperware and naturally my boy recalled it.  They quickly ran to do the task.  Phew! didnt hope to penalized them after all.

Asked TH in bed if I am too strict, surprisingly he said no.  I explained to him that I have a problem in controlling my temper.  He nodded as like he understood. Well, who can help other than myself.....

My Boy Writes Diary

22.12.12 - It's 11:40pm and I am on my way home from sis house.  At this point of time, JW was saying that my boy is writing his diary with his new Samsung Note II.  I am happy to hear that he starts to write diary. It will certainly be a good thing for him. Just now, I asked if I can read what he is writing but he said no. Maybe he's afraid I will scold him for his grammatical mistakes, hmm. It's fine, a diary is meant to be private and personal.  I respect him. He will find joy in keeping a diary like I do. It will get precious as years come by. I still remember reading my 1988 diary and gosh, it was so magical, I recalled so many precious memories with friends that I have long forgotten.  Too bad, I only managed to find just one diary, the rest are gone with the wind. That's why I need to keep on writing till death do us part, hehehe.... I must remember my ardent fan too.

Back to the dinner just now, I am so proud of my boy.  We had pot luck dinner and then, my sis planned so games for the kids.  She divided the kids into 2 groups.  JS, JW and IW were in a group while XY, RJ and EJ were in another group.  They enjoyed tremendously and the final game was to throw a ball into a bin and earn a point.  It ended up with the other team winning 9 points and it was all on JS to level up.  He needed to throw in 9 balls out of 10 attempts to strike a draw.  When everyone there including myself believe that it was a mission impossible, miracle happened.  All eyes were set on JS when he calmly threw one after another and he made it happened admist the intense cheers and pressure.  He was simply magical. It was a draw!

Before that, I heard JW whispered to my boy and she was apologizing to him in advance for fear that she will jeapordise their chances of winning.  She was humble and he was kind. He gestured to her that it's alright. Though my gal should not throw in the towel so early but it was sweet of her.  They were both courteous. Love them soooooo much.


Doomsday

22.12.12 - It's 1:30am and I am thankful to be still alive at this moment.  The world has not ended yet as predicted.  In fact, I had a lovely reunion dinner with my in laws at Six Happiness in celebration of the Winter Solstice Festival (Tung Jit).  Well, it is also the first time I felt the absence of Seah and family.  By the way, they are in Seattle now doing some practical studies for their migration.  So I guess we will have to get used to not having them around in the future.

Tomorrow I will go to sis house to celebrate Tung Jit with brother. It will be a pot luck dinner and I will buy fish head curry.  Initially, plan to cook 'tung ku mun pai kwat' but ML also plan to cook that dish, then I thought I will make steam kampung chicken but JL will buy chicken dish. So I ended up getting the curry fish head. But I think I will also steam half of the kampung chicken that I have in my fridge and will try to stir fry some broccoli and cauliflower with shrimps. I will also prepare JS favourite 'tong yuen'.  Hope it will be a lovely dinner together.

Just now at the reunion dinner, I think I was rather quiet.  Well, I am a Perfect Melancholy.  Socializing is just not my cup of tea.

17.11.12

It's past midnight and I am still wide awake. A lot of things are in my mind now, the dead rat on the ceiling, IRD query on dad's will, my medical report to be collected at Pantai tomorrow, my neighbour son wedding dinner tomorrow, our Taipei trip, our new house design, etc.  Hmm, I was half way listening to Chan Fong on 988 just now and I switched off as I wasnt listening. My mind was not in focus.

Well, let me just jot down what transpired today.  I had breakfast outside with my family and then, TH and I left for Viva homes Expo while the kids stayed at home doing their Taipei research. I asked them to do a study on the places that we will visit soon so that they will get familiar and share the thrill of getting to know the places. Next, I had a quite ordinary day with TH at the expo and we had a nice tea time at Steam House there.  TH had steam rice with minced pork while I ordered the coconut herbal soup.  It was pleasant as we took out our house plan and talked about it.  By the time we reached home, the kids had already finished their study and also an essay each too. Then, we walked over to our neighbour house for a buffet dinner in celebration of their 2nd son wedding tomorrow.  That's about it for the day as TH suggested that we wought to sleep early as the smell of the dead rat are getting unbearable downstair.  Well, the pest controller will be here early tomorrow morning. As much as I like to sleep, hmm, cant. Let's try counting sheeps....one, two, three......

JS has good patience like father

28.10.12 - Since we bought SM house, we have been visiting the show houses all over Klang Valley.  Today we were on our way to Setia Eco Park. TH was not sure of the directions and he also left the GPS at home. I told him to use the NKVE  highway so that we can easily find the Setia Alam toll.  He didnt listen.  He insisted that there are many ways to get there, so we ended up in nowhere.   Then, my dear boy offered his help.  He took the initiative to help by using the google map on TH handphone.  He was seraching while stubborn TH kept driving as if he knew the way when he didnt.  Told him to slow down or stop the car and let JS find out where are we. Again, he didnt listen and headed straight down to KL.  Only when JS found the route, TH needed to make a U turn and went back to where he started off. Damn, I was so frustrated with the old man.  But my boy kept on navigating the route for him and at few attempts, TH doubted JS advice and refused to follow his navigation.  Gosh! My boy has real good patience.  I remembered very well, he had to at least tell TH four times to turn back as he was in the wrong direction and the great part is JS was still calm and collected.  Though I was angry with TH, at the same time, I was proud of my boy.  He exhibited great patience and showed me how to do it.  I am so lacking in it.  I have to learn from him, oh.... my dear boy, my gift from heaven.

Karaoke Delights

27.10.12 - yesterday my family went to Red Box karaoke in Sunway Pyramid for lunch.  TH wanted to visit the property fair there, so we accompanied him.  The kids has grown up and it was the first time they really enjoyed it.  They held on tight to the mic and surprisingly, it was a sweet delight.  They began to sing new English songs that I was not too familiar. Funnily, JW knows most of the songs too.  They sang together wonderfully and I truly enjoyed their singing. JS showed some talents in singing while JW sings sweetly though a little off key at times. Yet again, they are my shinning jewels. I feel so blessed.

Wednesday, December 4, 2013

JS school trip to Penang

22.10.12 -  JS will be home this evening after his 4-day trip to Penang.  It is his class (3C) trip after PMR. He was extremely excited about the trip because he has missed out on last year trip.  As for me and TH, we worry about his trip as the forecast weather states that there will be flood in many areas during the monsoon season.  Dont want him to get stranded outside without us with him.  Hmm, what to do, how could we break his heart since he was so excited over it.  The only thing we can do is keep in touch and pray for him.  We just have to learn to let go.  He has to learn the tricks of life outside home.

I think JW will miss him most as she mentioned that night that she's not used to not having him at home.  Of course, there is no one at home who is willing to make noise with her, play with her, fight with her, amuse her and most importantly share with her. Now guess she's feeling the pinch, hehehe.  As for JS, he did called and text me everyday.  I am sure he has great times with his friends and I am happy for him.  He deserves to have fun after the toil and sweat. He also deserves good results, if GODs willing, hehehe.  Miss him dearly.

JS PMR

10.10.12 - Time flies! Today is the second day of my boy PMR and I would say he is in great shape for the battle. In fact, he looks more excited than worried to me  It's a good sign, hehehe. He scored 5As and 3Bs in his trial exam and he has put in extra effort for the weaker subjects i.e. BM, English and Maths. I hope his effort pays off for him.

Surprisingly, I am less excited for him as I thought compared to his UPSR.  I still remember I was extremely excited and nervous previously and I cannot ever forget the heart pounding moment when he broke the good news to me in the car. It is different now.  Could it be that he has grown up and is laready capable of preparing well for his exam, or could it be that PMR questions are already a challenge to me and that I am of no help anymore. Anyway, my boy is extremely obedient, takes my advice, accepts my nagging, though reluctantly at times.  He is doing well and I am sure he will do good in future.

Though he may not know what he wants to be right now, told him that he should start to find out what interests him and start consulting friends on the options after graduation.  It is best if he gets to study overseas because of good exposure and learning independence while acquiring different cultural knowledge. Since it will be tough for him to go alone, it could be better if he has friend to go together.  Then I am less worried too.  I am sure my boy can do well in whatever he chooses.  Of course, I wouldnt want him to leave home but I cannot be selfish.  Though reluctant, I have to let go for his sake and hope for the best for him.  Wish he finds a shorter course to do and be home in no time.

Letter to JS on his PMR

3.10.12 - It will be PMR exam next week and I know u are getting nervous as it gets nearer.  I must say I see your efforts every nights and u should be commended for it. It is important that u should know that no matter what your PMR result will be, it is alright.  U have done your part, so just leave it as it is. U definitely deserves good results but again, nothing is definite for sure. So if things fall apart, just remember u did your best and that's more important.

I am a strict mom. I want u to go an extra mile and work harder for success in life. U are capable of achieving great success and I am pretty sure about it.  I just needed to give u the push, though harsh at times. I love u. In fact, I am learning to be a mom every single day and I keep on reminding myself that I need to step up and be a better mom each day. Here, I wish u great success in your PMR! Jia you......

Our house was under siege

7.10.12 - Today is a Sunday. The smell on my blouse now reminds me of yesterday when our house was under siege.

In the late afternoon yesterday, my dear neighbour did some burning behind our backyard.  At that time, I was at the dining table doing some reading while the rest were in the study room with the air conditioning.  As I was reading, I smelt the burning smoke and it got worse until I was almost choke.  I closed the windows and doors and went into the study room, thinking it would be better in there.  Nah, after a while, our whole house was filled with smoke and the choking smell that began to suffocate our lungs.  It was extremely uncomfortable.  We rushed out to find out the source.  When we opened the door at the backyard, it was the misdeed of our dear neighbour who seemed to be ignorant of our predicament.  I was upset because they did the burning right behind our backyard when they could have done it in their own compound. Yes, it was obsious, they didnt want the smoke to enter their house all right.  Hmm, so I made a fuss intentionally, made sure that the message was sent across. TH sprayed water to their burning but it was too late, our whole house including all the clothes on the drying line were immersed with smoke and strong burning smell.  Even our throats and lungs took some time to get over the smoke inhaled.

I was so angry that I called Tracy and let her know about it. Apparently, she didnt sound apologetic but instead telling me that there were snakes in the bushes.  Well, it was rather amusing that we finally ended the conversation with me apologizing to her for making the complaint. Sigh!

I believe the amount of smoke that my whole family inhaled was equivalent to at least a packet of cigarette each, at the courtesy of my dear neighbour. Haiz.....

Wednesday, September 18, 2013

Medan Trip 2012

9.9.12 - It's 6:35pm and I am lying on the sofa at the front door waiting for TH and JW.  They had gone to Zi Xuan house to collect homework.  JW was absent from school today due to the trip.  We went to Medan on Saturday and came back just today..  It was a short relaxing trip.There wasnt anything great to talk about.  It was just a break away rather than a real holiday.  We were all kind of lazy, stayed at the hotel room most of the time.  The kids were glued to the ipad as usual.

Well, as our Grand Swiss Belhotel is adjacent to a small shopping mall, we never had to go far for our meals. We enjoyed interesting food there.  At Nelayan Restaurant, the food were great.  We had spicy meal for one dinner and a dim sum late lunch the next day. My boy loves the durian pancake very much  The orange pudding was interesting and yummy too.  So as most of the dim sum there.  I also found my old time favourite there, a fried prawn ball coated with bread crumbs that I used to enjoy during my teens when dad took me and family to Chiew Yeong Restaurant of those days.  It doesnt exist now.  Yummy, it tasted exactly the same.

Next we came across a restaurant called Moviegoers & Cafe that has private theatre for family like us.  We checked it out and enjoyed it too. JS chose the movie Skylight and it really tested the sound system. TH was so tired at that time and thought of dozing off in there but because of the sound system, he ended up finishing the whole movie and walked out pretty much awake, haha.

JS has pretty grown up and has abandon his interest in heading to the pool.  But not my gal as yet, she's still excited over the pool but too bad, we didnt fulfil her wish due to lost interest.  So we compensated her with a session of bubble bath in the room tub.  Nah, dont think she enjoyed it with me but she just being kind not to complain,

We had two sumptous breakfast at the hotel and the rooms were comfortabel.  We took half a day out exploring the Istana Maimoon, Masjid, Merdeka Walk and Sun Plaza.  Nothing much to see but just to exercise our legs.

Back home, we were delighted that Lassie survived the two days ordeal without food at home.  Though she made a mess, we didnt scold her but instead showered her with love.  The kids helped out, fed her, picked up her poop, etc. It was so smelly and I decided to wash the floor to get rid of the smell.  Then, I bathe Lassie too coz she smells.  My kids did a video recording on the bath session.  Now everything is clean and back in order.  Lassie looks bigger and stronger now, good for her.

Now that we are home, its time to get serious.  Back to work, as PMR is nearing, we must support our boy. He's do great, I am confident.

My Boy is a Joker

3.9.12 - My boy is so funny.  All in the family had a good laugh just now because of him.  After our dinner at mai man dim sum, we decided to head down to town for our favourite bubur cha cha at san peng road. So, in the car, TH asked JS to call and find out if they are open for business.  Actually, JS called up before and made a blunder back then. That was when he called and asked for bubur cha cha as like he wanted to speak to bubur cha cha.  We had a good laugh back then.

This time I did him a favour, told him exactly how to ask properly, like 'si tou, gam yat yau hoi mou' (bos, are u open for business today). Simple as abc.  He was cool and calm.  He bravely made the call and when the line got through, he opened his mouth to speak, all went haywire. He was off key and the cantonese sounded weird and not easy to understand, haiz.  Apparently, the other end also cannot understand him, so he struggled a little to express himself. All of us in the car laughed like hell including my boy.  Gee, he is so so funny and courageous too.

TH Good Try

30.9.12 - It is Mid Autumn Festival Day today and yesterday my family celebrated at the patio for the first time together with Lassie. We bought home KFC for dinner and had mooncake and tea.  As usual, JW was excited as ever but JS was less enthusiastic as before, he has grown up. TH was not too keen and that was normal for him. At least he tried to blend in for our sake.  It amused me to see his efforts flushed down the drain when he stood at the door and Lassie excitedly tried to lick his feet and then, he was reluctant to come out.  I was upset for a second and scolded him for being too petty.  But I forgave him coz I saw his effort and he did it for us, though half way only, hehehe.....

Our Lassie, A smart Dog

27.9.12 - Lassie is almost 6 months old and she already know how to take commands obediently.  She knows how to sit, stay, lie down, shake hand, roll over and play dead. She's a smart dog and a good companion. However, she's a dog with personality too.  She knows how to complain to us with her furious barks, hehehe. Especially when we feed her late. She's just adorable.

I am having fun learning through You Tube the method of training and it works pretty well.  She is a fast learner and I have no problem teaching her all those tricks.  Beagle likes food treats very much, so it is easy to teach too.  My gal also managed to teach her how to roll over and she did it. Apart from Lassie learning the tricks, my gal learnt something too.  She learnt patience and persistence.  Lassie adds joy to my family. Even TH who once dislikes dog now begins to appreciate her.  TH now starts to touch her, give her treats, looking out at her through the window and most importantly, he's enjoying it.

Lassie is definitely a pleasure.

JW first menses

26.9.12 - It's 7am now and I am in the car while TH walked JW to school.  Today my gal has grown up physically, her menses came for the first time when she woke up.  She came to my room, crying and hesitated to tell me why. I had to take a few guesses before bingo.  She was in fear.  I consoled her and explained to her patiently how to use the sanitary pad.  I gave her additional pads to bring to school too in case she needs to change.

It's a little weird that I am feeling the symptom too. Anyway, I am relieved that she had no cramp or whatsoever.  If I can endure the symptom for her, it's my pleasure. In fact, I am anxious for her.  I worried if she is able to handle it at school.  Will her menses gets heavy, will she knows how to change the pad, etc.  I guess I have to have better confidence in her. She's a smart gal.  She will have to learn the process of growing up on her own.

In fact, today is her exam day, haiz.  As long as she is alright, nothing matters more.  Will brief her further when she gets home this afternoon. Must let her know how menses comes about in our body. It is also important for her to understand what menstruation means. Not forgotten, must also tell her to jot it down on her calendars for reference.

Well, I read about menses before.  It is a sign of growing up when a girl turns into a woman.  Every month, the ovaries in a woman body will release a tiny egg.  If this egg is fertilized by a sperm, it will attach to the wall of her uterus and develop into a baby.  The uterus walls will automatically thicken with extra blood for the fertilized egg.  But if the egg is not fertilized, it will not attach to the wall and the uterus will get rid of the extra blood from its wall.  This blood and unfertilized egg will then come out of the vagina as menses.

Gee, now my gal will have to share my pads every month.  She will be alright as long as she is aware of what to do.  I used to have bad cramps during menses during my teens.  Mom and I were ignorant of how to take care of our body but now I can educate my gal so that she will not be subjected to unnecessary cramps.  Mom used to keep her mug of ice water in the fridge and I was happy to share with her most of the time, irrespective of menses or not. It definitely caused my cramps. But thanks God, after I got married, the cramps disappeared.

It's 11:45am now and my anxiety seeps in.  I am thinking about my gal at school. Well, I picked up the phone and called Christy to find out about Vernie's first menses condition.  It made me more worried when she told me the her 1st menses was heavy and she had to use the long pad.  Hmm, hope my gal cope well.

It's 4:30pm now and my gal was back.  She left for Cikgu Oi tuition. She is fine but the fact that she didnt go to toilet at all in school today bothers me. I know she's afraid of the mess but controlling her urine for too long and not drinking enough water is not healthy  I wish she can help herself by drinking enough water, go to toilet maybe once or twice and face the mess rather than avoid it and have health problem in the future.

Well, for now her menses is not heavy but moderate.  Taught her how to clean up and change pad just now.  She has to keep clean by changing the dirty pad an washing up with water at least twice a day.  Though she is a little anxious about the menses, she still smiles and gave me assurance that she is fine.

15.9.12

Today I had a rift with my brother over his Aussie Fund.  I was agitated by him when he doubted me. Well, I withdrew my citibank AUD fund last week and today he asked me if I made a mistake and withdrew his as well.  I thought it is so silly of him.  So I got mean and talked to him sarcastically.  We communicated through whatsapp.  Then, JL said I need not be so sarcastic to him even if he is ignorant.  Instead, I should assist him as siblings are supposed to support each other.Only then, I realized I did it again.  I lost control and became nasty.

I have this temperamental problem.  I get agitated easily and get mean.  Everyone piss me off and in return I piss them off too.  I did that to everyone including my family.  I think I am sick.  Anyway, just now, I apologized to my brother and related my problem to him in hope for his forgiveness. He accepted my apologies and even suggested that I take evening primrose and exercise more for hormonal balance.  I appreciated his concern.  How can I be mean and say nasty things to my love ones, haiz.

Realizing that my family has tolerated me for so long and I can sense some fear they have when dealing with me.  I am so sorry to them.  I have hurt them with nasty words and I gave them unwarranted stress.  They have not given up on me and yet they still love me for who I am. I must always remember to be nice. Maybe the next time I lost control, I just scold in front of the mirror and see the ugly side of me. I must show kindness and tolerance too. Yes, I can change.

Monday, June 3, 2013

5.8.12

It's 1pm now and I am sitting on the sofa penning this while my kids are outside washing the floor in the good company of Lassie at the patio.  They are enjoying themselves.

I feel so blessed though I am having a bad sore throat now.  My little wish came true.  I had once wish I will have a pet dog with me when I get old. I can imagine my dog will accompany me whenever I sit in the patio alone.  In fact yesterday, I got everyone out in the garden with me and it was so good.  JS helped TH wash car while JW did her homework with me surfing the net for ID works and our dear Lassie was there with us.

Actually, we are supposed to go to Mid Valley together as TH wanted to visit the property fair there and the kids supposingly go for the Wimpy Kid show. But due to my sore throat, I decided not to go as the medication makes me drowsy and tired. When we picked up JS from tuition just now, told him that I decided not to go MV and though I know he was a little disappointed because he was excited about the show, he calmly asked why and when I told him that I have a bad sore throat and had gone to the doctor, he further asked how do I feel now and what the doctor said. He didnt complain.  He was understanding and compromising. I am proud of him.  He's able to accept little upset in life.  But poor dad has to go to the fair alone.

Just now I read an interview between the Star and the author of Search Inside Yourself.  It's interesting and inspiring.  I learn the word 'spirituality' which means to look within, go beyond self.  Everyone can be spiritual.  If look deeply, a clam mind turn into a joyful mind and kindness will be discovered and all these are the sources of happiness.  It is important that self confidence is built upon self knowledge and self honesty too. When one is comfortable with her weakness and one knows her inner resources well, no failure can devastate her life and she can recover soon.  Be healthy, to take care of the body.  Be happy, to take care of the mind. Be compassionate, to take care of others.  Warren Buffet said 'Basically when u get to my age, u measure success in life by how many people u want to love u actually do love u.  If nobody thinks well of u, I  dont care how big your bank balance is, your life is a disaster'.

Nothing beats a Healthy Mind and a Able Body

17.8.12 - today I am on cloud nine.  I feel good.  I am extremely energetic despite a fall at FRIM yesterday. I had fine scratches and bruises on my upper lip, chin, shoulder and knee.  I had body ache too but I am amazed by the fact that I was able to do so much today.

Today is the beginning of school holiday.  We started the day healthily at FRIM as early as 7am.  It was a fun walk with the kids.  Then, we had popiah and coffee for breakfast in Kepong. Then, I went to Selayang market to get stuff for dinner and JW offered to lend a hand, so we got down together.  I bought a stalk of fresh carnation for her for helping me out with the bags.  She was delighted and I was happy. In fact, she improved her attitude tremendously after she read my blog.  

Then, we dropped by to visit my father in law who is resting at home after a minor surgery.  We spent roughly 30mins and headed home.  JW helped to feed Lassie and washed the kennel while JS washed the school shoes.  I prepared the food for dinner. I felt the spirit of 'gotong-royong' in the house and soon, all tasks were completed satisfactorily. Then, I demonstrated bathing Lassie as the kids wish to bathe her in the future.  Later, off we went to the vet after Lassie got dried.  This time, we took her for a fun car ride without her kennel, just collar and leash. Lassie enjoyed watching out the window and behaved extremely well.  Lassie is such a lovely pet and I am proud that we managed to raise her into a healthy and happy dog. She's into 5 months now and getting bigger in size.  She took her last jap and deworm tablet at KM vet clinic and we got to go back in a year time.

For lunch, I cooked instant noodles for TH and JW while JS had chocolate cookies.  I just had my BB coffee and fruits. It's almost 4pm now and soon JW gotto go tuition at Cikgu Oi while JS's tuition will be at 7:30pm at Teacher Gao's.

Tomorrow we plan to bring the kids to the Bookfest at KLCC.  Hopefully we will have another fulfilling day together.  By the way, yesterday we took the kids out for a wonderful dinner at The Ship after two stressful weeks of exam.  It was a blast. Love them sooooooo much............

Sunday, June 2, 2013

JW makes some efforts

11.8.12 - Since JW read my blog about her attitude problem, she seems to improve. I know she understands and is trying her utmost best to change for betterment.  I see her effort and is happy that my little gal that I once had is back. Seeing her put in efforts makes me want to change too.  I have benn impatient and nasty at times and I really need to put in some efforts too.  Since she can do it, so do I for my family and myself....

21.8.12

It's 3pm now and it's raining heavily. My mind is with TH and JS who are on their way to Cheras in the rain. JS wants to go to YR house to play futsal and good daddy is sending him there as I gotto stay behind with JW and her 2 classmates.  She invited her friends to come over to do their school project on this 2nd day of Hari Raya.  Well, hope it is dry in Cheras and JS can proceed with his game.  He has been very helpful today with the household chores. He helped vacuumed the whole house while I did the mopping.  However, as usual, I scolded him for doing it recklessly but deep inside, I appreciate his help very much. My once adorable boy has now grown up.  He's a fine boy, love him dearly:)

Just now, before the rain, I was sitting on the sofa at the backyard with Lassie, sipping a cup of BB coffee and with the ipad on my lap.  I felt so comfortable and fulfilling. For a moment, I thought why should I move to SM, my backyard here is so complete with nice pole for drying plenty clothes and a good large space for Lassie to drain her energy.  Well, I guess once a decision is made, we should just stick to it and make it a good one.  So far, TH and I have been enjoying the planning for our new home.  Life is so great!

7.8.12

It's 9:20am now and I am in the car waiting for TH to do his stuff at Celcom. I am recalling my little gal comment on Sunday.  She was disappointed that I have not write for a while now and there's nothing for her to read.

Well, I was kind of  upset with her lately but I do not know how to go about it.  Could it be that she is pampered by me that she is becoming a spoil brat. Is it my mistake. She has an attitude problem.  She has now forgotten what kindness, respect, love, good manners, etc are. She often throws tantrum, behave rudely, ignore people, etc.

Gosh! what has happened to the lovely little princess that I once had.  She used to be so loving, fun, innocent, well manner and was even a teacher to me at one point. She taught me little simple things that I forgot.  I really miss those days when she got home and had a lot to tell over her lunch.  Nah, not anymore, now she only has her book.  I cant even ask a question twice or else she will throw tantrum and blame me for not listening and remembering well.  I wish I have good memory like before but unfortunately, I am getting old. Hmm..

Anyway, I was delighted this morning at FRIM with TH.  He was passing a judgement on an old man while we were walking.  He said that whenever he talks to that old man, he feels at ease and he thinks he is a kind man.  So I asked him how he would judge me. He smiled and was a little reluctant to speak.  Told him that I will not get upset and that he can be frank. He said he is so used to me and there is nothing I should change.  So sweet:) He is so kind and tolerant. I can be real nasty at times, hehehe......

1.8.12

Today I truly appreciate TH contribution.  He takes good care of our household and is very efficient too.  Told him that our BMW air con is not functioning yesterday and today after he sent JS to tuition, he went to FRIM for his walk, bought fruits home for our breakfast and not long, he was out again to fetch JS before he went to repair the air con.  He came home aroung 1pm and took us to Tai Thong for a nice dim sum lunch. He's a good provider.

At the lunch table, a foreign worker was extremely attentive and hardworking.  He served us well, made efforts to remember what we ordered and items that are still outstanding.  I pointed out to JS and explained to him that it is the extra effort and initiative in that worker that makes him outstanding. If I am the boss there, I will appreciate this type of worker and will be delighted to promote him.

When I thought JS understood about the extra effort and initiative, the next thing I least expect was bombshell from him.  He showed me his science book and asked me if I can read the answer he has written to the question.  I couldnt read his untidy scribble. But when I asked him if he knows the answer to it, he said he didnt know the answer and he didnt know what he has written down. So I asked him to check the dictionary for the answer he had written and he told me he couldnt read and it was not necessary. I was so disappointed with his attitude. I told him I will check for him there and then and if I can find the answer to it, he will be penalize for a month with no electronic gadgets.  Then only he scrambled for dad's phone to check. Too late, I got the answer.  He will be penalized for showing no efforts and initiative at all. It is so unacceptable, next week will be his PMR trial exam and today he still doesnt bother to find out the answer to a question in his Science book, gosh!

Well, in the late afternoon, TH and I went over to Saujana to meet up with Putri.  She is a friendly and pleasant lady.  I bought a box of M&S tea for her and she was happy.  She invited us to her open house for Raya.  It was a cordial meeting where we handed over some keys that she needed.  Her husband offered to pay us one year rent for a discount.  Told him we will think about it and let him know later.  Then, we headed to Mak Tom and bought our dinner.  It cost $41 for the packed dinner.  Headed home and enjoyed the malay food together with the kids. Yummy!

20.7.12

It's 1:50pm now, I am with TH and JW at the table waiting for our dim sum at Tai Thong Kepong. It's Sports Day today and JW is free to join us for lunch.  I am a little frustrated now because TH is engrossed with his new Samsung Galaxy II and JW is glued to the ipad. I am bored, so I am penning this.

Yesterday, I received a tragic news.  LY daughter was drown in her trip to Tioman.  Heard she left for Mersing yesterday to bring back her body.  She is only in her teen and it is so heartbreaking for a mom to endure such a loss.  Life is so fragile.  Gone is gone, no sign at all. Hmm, feel so sorry and sad for LY. I pray that she will pull it through during this difficult time. LY and I have been close during childhood and I have strong feeling for her.  I cannot imagine if this happens to me. I may want to die with them, gosh!

Life is not about worries

10.7.12 - I understand this logic but yet no matter how true it is, I still worry about one thing after another.  I am not in control.  I am writing this because just last month, I was still worrying about my beagle pup, Lassie and now everything went smoothly and she's fine. Now I move on to another issue, I worry about my boy future. I am always looking out for issues.

When I was young, I worried about growing up, worried about getting married, about getting pregnant, about how to be a mother, etc. I know that eventually, everything will turn out fine. I should stop worrying and let nature takes its course. No worries, be happy:) This is a reminder for myself, from time to time.

Wednesday, April 24, 2013

6.7.12

It's a sunny morning today at 9:30am after a downpour at dawn.  I am now in the car outside TNB office waiting for TH to settle bills.  I am now thinking of Lassie at home because it has passed his meal time and I am not home yet.  Well, he will be fine, I am sure.  I surfed the net last night and found out that dog can actually survive days without food but not water.

My family and I will leave for Medan tomorrow for a short holiday.  We have to leave Lassie at home without food for 2 days.  We have no choice because at last minute, the pet shop doesnt want to take her in for boarding because she hasnt complete all her jabs yet, haiz!  But I notice Lassie has grown stronger now and her seizure is gone.  So happy that she is growing beautifully too.  Has imparted few training to her, she now knows how to sit, stay and shake hand, brilliant!

Dont know why this holiday to Medan is so ordinary and without much excitement like before.  JW has just recovered yesterday from fever.  TH and I even thought that we may have to cancel the trip at last minute if JW doesnt get well. Luckily, she recovered in time.  Well, maybe the trip is not as interesting as others and there's really not much to do other than relaxing at the hotel. I hope it will be a good bonding trip and all of us will have a safe and good holiday together.

7.2.12

It's 11:09pm now and as usual in bed penning this. It's so quiet now after TH wishes me goodnite a moment ago.  Before that, he handed me the yellow pages of the housing design section where we brought back from the property fair a week ago.  These few days, he has been flipping the pages ardently before calling it a night.  He is funny.  He handed me the yellow pages and laid beside me making sure I flip through the pages like a child pestering his mom to read him a story book. So, we chatted a while about it until he was satisfied, he called it a night.  Adorable!  Nowadays he is so engrossed with SM. He took me to all sorts of exhibitions showcasing properties and home design.  He is enjoying himself these days.

I am so happy for him.  I also thanks GOD for being kind to me.  I have been wishing for a pet dog and my wish is recently granted. When I worked in Taihan for almost 10 years, I always thought of having the opportunities to join a Chinese company with many colleagues for livelier environment. After resignation, I got a job at BP and had many colleagues. Again, when my sister bought a new house recently and made a little castle out of it, I thought how nice if I can have a new house to impart my ideas.  Hei, it materializes too.
I think I believe I can attract what I perceive, though it may sound ridiculous.  Anyway, I have GOD to thanks for all the wonderful blessings.

For now, I wish my gal will get better when she wakes up tomorrow morning.  My poor gal is down with fever and she is still awake in her bed reading story books.  She slept for 3 hours in the alte evening after taken her medication, so I guess she wont be able to sleep yet.

SM

19.6.12 - it's 2:09pm, while I am penning this, JW is enjoying her chan hin mee at the table.  She just came back from school.

Finally, after 2 weeks of mixed feeling, at last, we will have our dream house. TH called just now , our bank loan is approved.  We decided to buy a superlink house in SM with exclusive facilities and tight security after due consideration. Somehow, I had got TH very excited about this property.  My initial reason was due to the kids.  I thought as they grow, they may need more space more privacy meaning a bigger room for them.  However, along the way, my reason was not only for the kids but for TH too.  Being a retiree now, I think this big decision will keep him busy and occupied for at least few years down the road. It proves me right until now as he has been so excited preparing all the paper work and he is actually enjoying every moment of it.  So happy for him.  Of course I am equally happy too.  I have never before make big decision and I never like changes.  But this time, I was indirectly given a kick on my butt to move on. I came up with the idea, got TH all excited and now my unnecessary worries seep in and the thought of backing out got into me like usual.  But how can I back out now when I initially convinced him that at our age, this is the time that we go for it and not when our age catch up and our enthusiasm and energy gets lower. More so, I have the fund to pay for the upfront right now.  He bought it.  Well, he will give me half of his land in Kuang for investment. With high inflation, it is wise that I should invest into property.  Though we pay a premium price for it, we have nothing much to lose.  It will be a dream house excellent for retirement. Let's hope we stay focus and stick to our intention by then. Properties do appreciate over time, hehehe....

Being a sentimental person, I think I will probably encounter some problems when I start to pack later on.  Hope I can compromise then.  As for now, I have a great mission ahead:)

Lassie, a pressure or pleasure

8.6.12 - Hmm, I now question myself.  Is Lassie a pressure or pleasure?  I have been quite busy and stressful these two days since she was brought back. My kids enjoy Lassie very much and I can see that they now dare to touch and hold her.  I am happy for them.  But, my life is quite a mess now that Lassie requires so much care and attention.  I have to take care of his pee and poo, stick to his routine meals, make her bed, etc.  I cannot leave sight of her.  And she is quite a stubborn pup, yeah, she's a beagle after all.  So my patience is tested. It's damn hard and stressful.

Actually, I realize that rearing the pup reflect the way I should my kids too.  I read a lot from the website and I found out that it is the same way that I should learn to apply to my kids too.  My kids deserve care and attention much more than Lassie.  I am coming to my senses that I have to nurture my kids with more patience as they are still growing kids.  How can I expect them to know everything an adult does. I should understand better what a growing kid needs like what I understand what a beagle need.  I understand from months of study about beagles from the net.  I know what beagles are like and I can tolerate them because I know that it is their nature. So what about my kids? Do I understand them? Hey I should better start reading about it, to be fair.

Lassie is still so young and she need lots of my time.  I have been sleepless and stressful these past days.  Hopefully she will adapt and be fine.  I am worried.

Apart from my worries, I am quite amused when my kids and I always get excited about Lassie while poor TH failed to blend in.  It's like he talk about one thing and we talk about Lassie and Lassie only.  Hope he wont get jealous. I do feel that he begins to open up a little when I notice that he checks on Lassie once in a while and stares at her with amusement like he hasnt seen a pup plays before.

Though I am very tired, I have to make sure I wont trouble TH too much as I dont want him to feel that Lassie is a wrong decision. Me and my kids will do a good job, I believe.

Lassie Comes Home

6.6.12 - It's 1pm now and me and my family are on the NS highway heading back home with our new addition to the family, Lassie.  It's our first pet dog and she is 6 weeks old. We were all anxious and also excited when she got into our car just now.  But it's all calm and quiet now as her energy went low and is now sound asleep. She's adorable.

TH had to bear with the odor in the car but he didnt complain. He just wants to detour and have a meal at the famous Sg. Besi Fish Head later. Actually the pup should be heading home immediately as she needs her food and drink.  But how can I say no to TH. Well, I guess it will be fine.

Lassie is extremely active.  I hope she will be a great gift for the whole family. I am sure she will add joy to our lives.

To put into record, TH finally came up with the name Lassie and I think we should just let him have the say in hope that he will be part of it.  He was never fond of dog.

Friday, January 18, 2013

My New Sofa, A Sweet Delight

18.5.12 - Today I finally bought my long intended L-shape sofa. Actually last week I nearly bought a sofa from Rozel that I like very much.  Due to time constraint that day, we didnt.  We thought we will go back and buy some other day later.  But today after our facial at NYS, TH brought me to Miva nearby to window shop. There's this middle aged boss, Mr. Chong manning the shop alone.  He talked about the quality and reasonable price of Miva products compared to Rozel. To cut things short, we bought what he said. We bought a sofa from him at a better price and similar quality. Of course, design was different but acceptable.

I like the fact that I can choose two colors and mix and match with no extra cost.  So I chose two colors and gave the details of my idea. Mr. Chong drew a sketch with my idea on the order form and confirmed with me.  When we were about to leave, he suggested that I probably forgo the two color as he's worried that it will look odd eventually. I insisted on sticking to my idea. In the car, I was disturbed by his advice and finally I decided to change to one color instead. I called him immediately but he asked us to return to the shop and sign the order form again.  Told him that we couldnt  return and asked if we can faxed to him instead.  He said can but when I reached home, I couldnt fax through. Then I called him and he said something is wrong with his fax.  Then he called TH and asked us to return to the shop. TH told him that we can email or fax him again and probably he said no.  At that stage I had a feeling that he was trying to make things difficult for us. So, I told TH to forget it. We wont change. When TH told him so, he quickly asked us to just text him instead and it can be done. He was definitely pulling our leg.  But what delights me was when TH said girl are like that. Mr. Chong could be complaining about me to TH and the fact that TH sided me is so sweet. When TH hung up, he commented that this man is so petty and sissy like a girl.  Hahaha, my man is so sweet.  He didnt blame me for being freckle minded but on the other hand, he supported me all the way.  Gee, he's good!

JW getting short fused

16.5.12 - It's 3:13pm now and I am waiting for JS at Wesley.  I am recalling the outburst with JW yesterday.

My little gal is getting short fused and throw tantrum easily.  Well, when she got back from school, she muttered something to me while I was busy preparing her lunch.I couldnt hear what she was saying, so I asked her to repeat it. There and then, she was agitated and refused to repeat it. I insisted and reluctantly she told me that she said she will buy her own lunch tomorrow at school and that I dont need to pack anything for her. I told her that I already bought her dumplings for tomorrow.  Instead of being grateful, she threw tantrums again.  I was so upset with her. She's turning into a spoil brat:(

At dinner, I didnt take the chicken and vegetables for as I normally do. So TH asked her take it on her own but she refused.  She just ate her rice on the place.  TH lost his temper and shouted at her for being rebellious.  She began to shed tears silently and there went our nice dinner. It hurt to see her cry while swallowing each spoonful of rice.  I felt like hugging her at that very moment but I know she has to learn.  She cannot be pampered all the time and become a spoil brat.

After the storm yesterday, I see rainbow today.  My gal  woke up, wished me good morning.  She was courteous and polite.  In fact, this episode has reminded both of us that we have to be kind to each other and not take each other for granted.

I am also thinking why my gal misbehave, is it my fault?  I am a little short fused recently, could it be me that influenced her.  I somehow see myself in her at times.  Well, in that case, I must show her that I should be able to control my temper and so does she.  I will be more patient with her, listen carefully to what she has to say, be more attentive to her.  Gee, hope it is not too late to change. Good luck to me and my gal!

No matter what happens, I will forgive her:)

JS Trip to China

15.5.12 - My boy will be making an educational trip to China with his friend, Roy at the end of the year on 5.12.12 for 11 days.  At first, I was reluctant to let him go but when TH pointed out that it is indeed an educational trip to have better insight of the Chinese culture.  The group will also visit school in China and have interaction with the students there. I gave in and decided to test my boy on how bad he wants to go.  I told him if he wants to go, he must promise to give JW science tuition every Sat for 1 hour.  Gee, he really wants it bad.

Hmm, but today I changed my mind. I saw on paper that China has flood catastrophe and there were death and casualties.  This is the first time my boy will go overseas alone and I am not sure if he can take good care.  Just now, I tried to talk him out of it since it is not too late yet.  But he still want to go ahead.  I know I have to keep my words and it is wrong for me to stop him now.  Well, I just have to think more positive and that he will return home safe and sound plus extra knowledge and gain better exposure.  It will be a good life lesson for him:)

A Sweet Supper

Last night  TH and I experienced insomia together.  In bed @ 10:30pm but couldnt sleep.  We tried doing some leg and knee exercise in bed, chatted leisurely, meddled with our handphone but to no avail.  We laughed at each other when our tummy started to make noise @ 12:30am at the same time.  So we decided to go down and grabbed something to satisfy our tummy. With some excitement, we helped ourselves with milo and cream crackers.  It was a lovely supper and I thoroughly enjoyed every moment of it. I felt so comfortable with him.  When we got back into our bed, we wished each other good night and I dozed off within minutes.  But TH told me this morning that he managed to sleep only at 3am.  Poor thing!

15.5.12

It has been almost a month now that TH retired. He is adapting well, so far so good.  Every morning, we drop our kids to school and go to FRIM together. Then he drives me to the market. He will buy fresh fruits for the day. Sometimes, we have breakfast together but most of the time, I will make him herbalife breakfast while I have fruit and herbalife tea for slimming purpose.We watch the morning news together before we get busy with our own routine.  I prepare the ingredients for dinner and make soup. In fact I am enjoying his company.  With him at home, I feel love and secured. I now open up the doors to the patio and I can relax and enjoy a cup of tea at the patio. I love my home.  I also feel healthier and energized.  Wow, what a good effect he has on me. I am absolutely the beneficiary here, love him love him:)

Beagle Fever

14.5.12 - It's 10:15pm on my bed.  Doubt I can sleep sound tonite as well.  I can sleep but not sound for almost a week or two now.  Why? Nothing is bothering me, in fact I am so full of excitement and it affects my sleep every single night.  Once I lie down, I will automatically think of the beagle that we are getting and it just cant get out of my mind. I am eagerly awaiting for its arrival.  My kids will get the puppy for their birthday this year.  They are excited and happy too. We have chosen a beagle according to TH specification.     It must be a short fur dog and medium size. Since the kids exam will be over next week, we plan to get our beagle during the coming school holiday.  I am actually doing a lot of homework prior to the arrival of our beagle.  I study the ways to potty train, crate train, etc.  It is so interesting to learn all these available methods to train a dog.  We have been to several pet shop lately and start to notice the dog's items available in the market.  It is something new and fun to us. I hope the kids will have a great time rearing a puppy for the first time. They joined me in doing the studies.  They told me to choose a puppy of not more than 8 weeks old because a puppy of this age is suitable for training.

I have an intuition that this birthday gift will eventually be a gift for my whole family.  It will definitely bring lots of joy and laughter in the family.  Thanks, Lord!

I made a DIY crate and toilet bin.  Got TH to make additional awning at the backyard for more shade.

As for now, hope I can forget about the beagle for the next 8 hours and get up fresh in the morning tomorrow to continue with my beagle studies. In fact, I look forward to waking up every morning and do my studies.  I am so engrossed and excited!

Feel Pampered Today

9.5.12 - It's 10:15am now and I am in the car waiting for TH to buy me bird nest concentrate at Hong Meng nearby.

I am feeling good today.  After FRIM this morning, I had an impromptu urge to have red bean bun at Guilin Dim Sum.  TH didnt feel like having dim sum and hesitated partly because of the jam at this hour.  Though he looked a little reluctant, he didnt want to disappoint me. He obliged and joined the jam. Haiz, when we arrived, it was not open.  So TH took me to another outlet nearby that sell dim sum. The dim sum was disappointing. After dim sum, in the car, I grumbled and complained as why TH brought me there.  He took my nonsense calmly. Almost immediately, senses came home and I felt the guilt. Then, I needed the toilet but didnt want to go home and come out again to the market.  So TH adjourned to the nearby TNB for my toilet stop and he waited in the car for me. Then, he dropped me at the market and he helped JS to photostat some class papers.

Gee, I feel I took him for granted today and he was so obliging to my needs.  Great husband, no complaints!

Thursday, January 10, 2013

1.5.12

It's 10:41pm and in bed.  TH and the kids are sound asleep while I am penning this.  No thanks to the Hokkaido coffee I had at Ding Tea this late afternoon. Well, it's Labour Day and we had a pretty busy day out.

We woke up and watched a Chinese movie on TV together before we left for lunch. We had yong tau foo at Ampang before we made our way to the nearby SPCA.  The kids will get a puppy for this year birthday and they wanted to adopt one from SPCA if possible. An hour at SPCA was interesting.  There were many dogs put up for adoption.  There was even a female adult beagle available but the kids prefer a puppy.  Yes, there were also few puppies of mix breed.  JW likes 2 puppies of white and brown color but too bad, they are male. Interestingly, we believe we also found our neighbour dog there that was lost few months back.  We took a few shots and showed it to our neighbour when we got home.  Yeah, Mrs Ng thinks it's their dog too.  Since she has adopted a puppy now, she said she will not get their dog back:(

We left SPCA with no puppy.  Then, TH took us to a show house launched by Dolomite opposite Templer Park.  Wow,  a 22x77 link house costs $1.2m. Nah, it is way too expensive and not worth the distance.  The only plus point is that it is surrounded by reserved forest. Then we took our time driving around the nearby new housing launches before we headed out to Ding Tea in Bandar Manjalara. Ding Tea serves better drinks than Cha Time, my opinion.  I had Hokkaido Coffee, Taro for TH, Plum lemon for JS and chocolate for JW.  Then, we went over to De Pastry to order durian ckae for JS birthday but durian cake is not available as it it is not durian season yet, hmm. Anyway, I will call Secret Recipe tomorrow to see whether they have durian cake.  After that, we dropped by a pet shop in Desa Park City.  There, we had fun with a Pomerian pup ($2,600) and a poodle pup ($1,400).  JS likes the Pomerian whereas JW likes the poodle.  I like them both but that is out of the question.  Short fur, remember!  We look for a dog to guard our house and run in our yard.  We have to stay focus.

Then, we had an early dinner at Bonga Korean Restaurant to celebrate JS birthday.  It was a delicious dinner and we all enjoyed it. The dinner cost $240.

We were out half the day and got home about 7:30pm.  We watched the news on NTV7 at 8pm together. JS slept earlier than usual tonite @ 9:30pm as he woke up @ 3am today for a live football match between MU and MC.  Poor thing, his favourite team lost.

Now I cant sleep probably because of the coffee and also the adorable puppies I met today. I am still thinking of them, so cute......

Bersih 3.0

28.4.12 - It's 2pm and I am with the kids at the patio all dressed up in yellow and green to show support to all our fellow Malaysian out there.  Today is a historical day where Malaysian are out in the streets at Dataran Merdeka to make their voice heard. Malaysians are calling for a fair and just election.  BN Government has been using dirty tactics to win election and has managed to maintain its power for 55 years now.  This time around, among the dirty tactics, govt issues temporary IC to 300 thousands foreign workers in exchange for votes.  Today Govt set up roadblocks and issue court order to prevent Malaysians from entering Dataran Merdeka. Bersih today plans 'duduk bantah' meaning sit to protest for 2 hours from 2pm to 4pm.  It will be  a peaceful protest. Ah Seah has gone down to show support.  Susan and my sis separately asked me to go with them but I was indecisive.  JS was worried and begged me not to go. Knowing that there will be risks, I decided to abandon the idea.

It's 11:23pm now and in my bed.  It was truly an eventful day though I was at home.  I followed the updated news on FB and Malaysiakini closely every second of the day and somehow I almost felt as if I was there too.  I was moved and overwhelmed by all the photos and videos that were made available by individual and news media.  About 100 thousands Malaysian came together today and it was truly overwhelming.  They san Negaraku, Rasa Sayang, etc.

Since Govt restricted public from getting into Dataran Merdeka, Datuk Ambiga, Chairman of Bersih decided that protestors will not break the law and force themselves into the restricted area.  Instead, she announced that protestors will march from the 6 meeting  points towards DM and stop at the nearest restricted area.

Sadly to note, it ended with chaos when some protestors stayed behind after Datuk Ambiga announced that the protest has ended and they shall disperse.  Some stubborn protestors barged into the restricted area and police launched chemical laced water and tear gas canisters at the protestors.  A total of 388 protestors were arrested and from the videos, it was seen protestors were beaten by police during arrest.  Hmm, I hope Malaysians effort will pay off eventually and soon we will have a responsible Govt that care for its people.

Oops! TH drops his white Rado watch and it was broken. Poor thing, it cost him a few hundred bucks.  I hope he can sleep well tonite:(

TH Being Egoistic

27.4.12 - Last night as usual before bed, TH asked if I will join him tomorrow for his morning walk at FRIM. Tested him by asking back if he would like me to go with him.  Ha! he said I better go because his knee joint is in pain. His response doesnt make sense until I took a while to realize that he was being egoistic.  Well, normally he will trek the 200m forest if he goes alone but if I go with him, I prefer to walk the slope4 on the road which is an easier path for me. So he was saying that if I go with him, he will have to walk the slope and not likely to injure his knee joint further. Rubbish! Even if he goes alone, he still can opt to walk the slope. Guess he wants me to go but ego got in his way and here we go around the mulberry bush, the mulberry bush.......

TH Retirement 2012

21.4.12 -  It's 10:50am now on a Sat and while I am penning this, TH is at his desk doing some paper work while enjoying songs on his handphone.  Gee, this is the first time he switches on the songs like what I have been enjoying all these while, while I cook and clean.  Good for him.  Today, JW has school replacement and JS is out at Perfection tuition at this moment.

It's been more than a week now that TH has retired from work. He called it a quit after business was bad.  I have been worried about the uncertainties ahead and whether we will have problem adapting to this change.
But, so far so good, everything turns up well.  He is extremely understanding and caring as not to disturb my routine.  He run errands for me and I feel like I have an extra hand these days.  He helps to fetch the kids, start to do some handy jobs at home, etc. Usually when he checks the cupboard, he will nag me for keeping so many rubbish but now, he know s that he will have to do it on his own if he think he wants to dispose them and not nag at me anymore.

Thinking back, in fact he being at home is a blessing in disguise for me.  I feel a little amount of pressure being at home with him the whole day but surprisingly these pressure are quite pleasant.  I make effort to wake up early and dress decently.  That day, we went for lunch at Maju Palace, just both of us while the kids were at school.  It was like we were on a date, the dim sum was so delicious.

I hope this good harmony at home will prevail.  As long as we both are courteous and know our boundaries, I guess there will be no problem at all.

Surprisingly, he listens to me. I suggests that he buy the chinese newspaper everyday to read as it is a very good habit to kill some time at home.  I know he doesnt read much, he prefers to watch news on TV.  Anyway, he starts to buy newspaper and I am truly happy to see that he is trying it out.

Green Light to Get A Puppy

20.4.12 - Today I managed to convince TH to allow us to get a puppy.  He was in good mood this morning, so I took the opportunity to voice out the idea again.  He is not a dog lover, in fact he has no feeling for dog. That's why every time I mention about it, it was always negative response.  I dont blame him because he doesnt  actually know how to appreciate a dog.  He has never rear a dog before compared to myself.  I am a dog lover mostly because  my parents reared many dogs since I was young.

This morning, I suggested that we give the kids a special gift for birthday this year, a Puppy! I want my kids to enjoy the company of a puppy at home like what I had during my childhood.  A dog is a new addition to a family and it brings joy and cheers to all of us especially the kids.

The kids and myself are excited over the approval and we surfed the net about dogs.  So far I think the beagle suits us most as TH only accept short fur dog. Beagle has short fur, short to medium size but noisy dog.  It is a hunting dog that has an amazing nose that detects scent easily.  Well, we have to wait till the kids finish their exam, then we will go for a shopping spree for puppy this time.  It will be a fun shopping for the family.  Hope we will find the perfect puppy for our home and it will be our best friend for life.

Dog is man best friend.  I truly believe it.

Steamboat At JL House Warming

15.4.12 - Yesterday we went to my sister house for steamboat, her house warming dinner.  She finally moved into a semi detached house, an idea initiated by dad years ago before his demise.  Dad always encourage my sister to get a bigger house so that they have more space.  Now she has fulfilled dad wish for her.  I am sure dad is smiling somewhere out there.  I pray that my sister and family will find harmony and happiness in this new home.

We bought 1kg live tiger prawn and brother bought a birthday cake.  ML made some delicious sui kow and JL prepared so much to eat.  It was a sumptous dinner and everyone was happy and satisfied.  The boys were playing football at the porch while the girls were at the computer.

As for the house design, I have to compliment JL for her good job.  I like the outdoor patio setting, it is warm and comfortable.  I see her efforts. I am really happy for her.  I paid her $5,200 for her set of new sofa as a contribution for a dear sis. JL and GH have been a good host and extended warm hospitality.  It was a comfortable family dinner.

My 43rd Birthday

12.4.12 - I am counting my blessings right now as I am waiting at home for TH to buy my lunch.  Today, the plumber came to fix the new toilet bowl for the kids.  As JW is approaching maturity and very soon she will have menses, so we decided to fix a new toilet bowl for her convenience.

Well, my family accompanied me to a session of karaoke yesterday @ Facekara in Viva Homes.  Though the sound system was not too good, I still feel happy.  My family know I love karaoke and they were there to sing for me.

This morning, TH took me to Tuck Kee for my favourite dim sum after our walk at FRIM.  Then, we went to De Pastry to buy my birthday cake.  Tonight we shall go to Komura Japanese Restaurant at Corus Hotel for a feast.

15.4.12 - As I am updating this, I am sitting at the sofa in the living room.  Well, when the kids got back from school, we cut cake in the study room as to avoid the dust in the house.  My kids gave me a nice chain with love shape pendant bearing my initial J and K.  I am touched that they bought me present beside a birthday card.  It was so sweet of them.  Wonder where they bought those, ah ha, my dear boy got them from his Perfection Tuition Centre. I love them so so much.

A Bittersweet Lesson

10.4.12 - It's 6pm now and I feel bad and guilty. Just a moment ago, I made my gal cried and threatened her with the cane.  An hour ago, she supposed to finish her remaining 2 homeworks but when I checked on her, she was meddling with her color market pens.  When I asked her about her homework, she just kept quiet. Losing my temper, I scolded her badly until she shed tears.  Then when I walked away, TH came over and told me that she was actually making a birthday card  for me.  Gosh! It was like my heart was being crushed by a huge stone.  I felt so bad.  Why didnt she say so.  But how can she say when it supposed to be a surprise.  I quickly went in and apologized to her and hugged her tightly. I really hope she forgives me and when she smiled just now, I know I was forgiven, love her:)

Will be going for a movie tonight @ 10pm, Titanic 3D.  I have seen the movie before and it was a beautiful movie. I want my kids to enjoy the show as much as I enjoyed it once again.

Ching Ming 2012

6.4.12 - Today is Friday and it's Good Friday.  It's school holiday for JS and three of us made a trip to Nilai to pay respect to mom, dad, tai ma and popo during this Ching Ming.  My dear boy has been very helpful today, he accompanied me to the market to get fruits and flowers early in the morning.  We had breakfast at Batu Caves before leaving for Nilai at 11am.  It was a windy day today and the visit has been a good one.  TH, JS and myself worked together hand in hand, lighting up the candles and joss stick, laying the fruits (mango, banana and orange) and flowers, praying togehter, using two coins to check if they are done with the food, a suspicious method introduced by TH.  Both of them were impatient and flipped the coins over and over again. Haiz. I was made to leave that place hurriedly.  Actually, I wanted to stay longer to spend time with mom and dad.  I have so much to say to them. I hope they will see me in my dream tonite.  I reallly miss them much.

Though I nagged JS throughout the trip today, I am actually thankful to him for his help and obedience. Actually, his friend Brandon invites him to his house in Sri Hartamas today for a football game and another friend, Yong Ren invites him to hang out in Mid Valley.  JS really wanted to go to Brandon house but he gave in to me and accompanied me.  He's my boy:)

I want to show him what Ching Ming is all about but the joke is I actually dont really know much.  I am just learning.  I want to do it every year.  I hope I can bring JW too but she has school today.

Though I am not sure if mom and dad really show up, it doesnt matter too much.  Believing that they are around somewhere watching over me as I look at their tombstone makes me feel good.  I feel their presence. I miss them so much.  I asked them for forgiveness for my wrongdoings, I thanked them for their love and blessings, I shared my little secrets and I asked for 3 wishes today.  I pray that TH will not be subjected to further work stress so that he can have good health.  I pray that JS will do well in his PMR this year.  I pray that my chemistry with JS will improve.

JW First Outing

6.4.12 - my dear gal will be going for a day trip organized by school tomorrow and she is so excited right now.  She couldnt sleep last night and she doubts she can sleep tonight as well.  She said she kept thinking about the trip.  She told us that her good friends also couldnt sleep last night. TH allows her to take the old camera along and she is so happy.  I bought some chips, cookies and tic tac for her trip.

Just now, when TH asked her what will she do if she get lost in the group.  Funnily, she replied that the first thing she will do is cry first, then only she think what to do.  So we advised her to borrow a phone and call home.

She will visit The Planetarium, Tugu Kebangsaan, KL Tower, chocolate factory and the new palace.  She's been very kind to her friends.  Though she wish to sit with her best friend in the bus but she rather give up her wish to her other two good friends who cannot get along with each other.  So she is willing to sit with one of them to solve their problem.  I am so pleased with her. Kindness is a good attribute in life.  Hope she can sleep well tonite and wake up fresh for a happy trip.  To be continued......

She's back and had a blast.  It was raining heavily at 5pm and TH and I decided to go to school earlier and wait there.  Once we reached school, she was already back in school.  We did a favour and gave Pei En a lift.  JW was extremely happy to have her best friend joined her for dinner together.  We went to Giza shopping centre at Kota Damansara for dinner at Tian Siang Hui Wei Steamboat as we have to wait for JS to finish his project at Asyraf house nearby.  After picked up JS, we bought chicken rice home for him.

Excitedly, our dear gal got us all seated in front of the TV for a slideshow briefing.  She took many photos and she wanted to tell us all about it.  The photos are not bad but a little blur due to her unsteady hand. She enjoyed tremendously.  She bought a bar of chocolate from Berry's factory and the whole family enjoyed it while watching the photos.  I have never seen her so talkative before.  I am happy for her.  My gal also has finally grown up and know how to handle things.  She brought back her bag with everthing in tact and most importantly, she's back home safe and sound.

JS makes movie

8.4.12 - JS has to make a movie for his school project and yesterday I took him to his friend, Asyraf house to do it.  It was a last minute idea to go there as Asyraf kept calling him and he too is keen to go.  I was kind of surprised as he was eager to go to a Malay friend house. He supposed to have language barrier but it didnt stop him.  Guess I underestimated him.  I am glad. Even though I didnt know the way at all, I still take the risk and took him there with our GPS.

When he got home, all of us were eager to watch his movie clips.  We were pleased with what we saw.  He acted quite natural though a little funny. It was about Asyraf who is a target of a bunch of bullies and JS is his good friend who stands up for him.

Today, a Sunday, when he said he wanted to go again, we took him there without hesitation.  We saw what he had done and are pleased with him.  We fully support his effort.  Hopefully he can also brush up his English by spending time with the Malay family.  Again, proud of him:)

My experience with Hives (Fung Mok)

14.3.12 - It has been exactly a week now since I was down with hives.  The attack came after my seafood pizza with the kids at home.  TH was out and it was raining that night, so we decided to order Dominos Pizza delivery for the very first time.  Guess I have to pay a high price for that nice pizzas, hmm:( Luckily, my kids didnt get it.

Rashes were all over the body and gradually made way to the face.  Rashes were tiny red dots but when I scratched them, it swelled and became huge red patches.  They were so itchy.  Went to Dr. Low twice and finally to Central Clinic, all didnt go well. Finally, I stopped the medication because it caused bad stomach pain and nausea too.  OMG, it was so painful until I hid myself in the toilet and cried in pain.  When it was all over, I just couldnt take those medicines anymore, so I depend on the calamine lotion that doc gave to apply on the rashes.  That is why the rashes go and come back until today.  TH brought me to Hong Meng sinseh for Chinese treatment and bought 2 packets of herbs for the hives.  It was bitter. Hope it helps.  Tonite, new rashes not sighted yet so far:) though I still feel a little itch somewhere over my body.  Guess I was already used to scratching my body the whole night long for a week now and somehow I am conditioned.

This one week school holiday was ruined by my hives.  Initially I planned to take the kids out to park, library, P.Street, badminton games, PD, K.Selangor, etc. during the holiday. So far we did none.  At least today, I managed to teach them how to fry an egg and they learnt well. Even though I can only watched them enjoy their own fried egg and couldnt eat together, I am still happy.  Actually, I am under a strict diet due to the hives, cant eat seafood, chicken, beans, some fishes, egg, nuts, etc.  And because I am not too obedient, my rashes took so long to heal.  Anyway, I hope I can wake up tomorrow feeling fresh and healthy once again.  Our dear TH wants to take us to P.Street for a nice lunch.  Lord, pls let me sleep well tonite, Amen!

Grateful to TH

1.3.12 - now at Wesley school waiting for JS.  It's 3pm now, came early as he is just recovering from a bad sore throat, flu and cough.  Sitting here in my car, I am thinking of TH.  I feel grateful to him.  This morning had body ache and again I didnt keep my words to join him for the morning walk at FRIM.  He left alone a little disappointed.  When he's back, I forgot to make his herbalife shake.  He just acknowledged and didnt complain.  Felt a little guilty even more when he help to bank in my cheque and service my car that day. He is so accommodating to me.  I must keep this in mind and not exploit him always.  So when he asked me out for lunch this afternoon, I just couldnt say no anymore even though I am on my BB diet.  So we had nice dim sum in the neighborhood.  Then he dropped me off at home before he left for work.  Feel so pampered, love so much:)

23.2.12

TH went outstation today and mom in law bought bak kut teh for me and the kids for dinner.  So after fetching the kids from school, we dropped by  and collected the bak kut teh.  I made an effort to buy some nice swiss roll at One Stop on my way to give mom in law.  In the car, the kids looked puzzle as why I buy swiss roll for their grandmother. Told them that we ought to get her something because she has been giving us all the time.  We should give and take. Not take all the time.  It is courtesy that we need to learn in a society.  I cited an example, why TH and I can stay happy in our marriage.  If we compromise, we always have the give and take attitude, then we have no problem.

Hope the kids understand this logic and learn to give and take.  This will make human relation works better.

Family Trips

22.2.12 - I am a happy wife and a happy mom. I have the privilege to organize DIY trips for my family and they like it. I normally propose a destination, find as much info as possible and get TH consent. So far, all our trips were good and memorable. TH has confidence in me and let me have the say most of the time.  He just need to pay the bills and help execute my plan.  He loves all my plans:)

All work no play makes Jack a dull boy, so I make sure my family goes for trip every year.  All of us have been working hard the whole year through and we deserve a holiday at the end.  I must say credit goes to TH for making it possible. I am thankful to him.  He works hard for the money and we are financially capable of doing the trips. We are able to spend quality time together in all the trips.  My family has good chemistry.  Each of us somehow has a role to play.  I am the organizer, TH is the financier and executor and the kids are the assistant executors.  We all work hand in hand to make our trips interesting and memorable.  So far, we did a good job.

Actually, the destination is not the most important point to me.  Rather, my kids and TH company is of utmost importance.  Many said that at certain age, kids will no longer want to follow parent for holiday.  I am a little worried over that statement. I really wish my kids will follow us and spend time with us on holidays.

I have a good collection of all our trips photos and it is loaded in my FB.  Looking back at those photos always remind me of my blessing.  They are everything to me.

JW High Jump

2.2.12 - Tonite JW went to bed very worried.  It somehow makes me a little worried too but cant help her much.  She will have to do a high jump at school tomorrow and the last time she did it, it was a joke.  She was the first in line and she related to me that she didnt know how to jump and she ended up running towards the bar and pushed it away. Her friends had a good laugh. That is why she is so worried now.

Yes, JS and I tried to show her the way just now but damn, it is not easy. I ended up telling her to observe how the rest do it and if really cant jump, just forget it, do what she did the last time, sigh:(

No more scolding!

21.2.12 - I am feeling on top of the world now because I feel in control.  Yesterday, I promised myself that I will not scold my kids anymore and so far I did it. I will have better control and talk nicely to them instead.  They are growing up day by day and fast too.  I wish time can slow down before they eventually leave home for studies.  I will miss them badly.  So far, they have been good and obedient. I am so proud of them. They deserve my utmost respect.

I overlooked my goal.  Why should I force myself to socialize, make friends, set good impression, etc. It is all about me. I got it all wrong. It should be about my family. I have better things to do in life at this stage.  I should use my energy and efforts on my kids instead.  I should do more for them, give more quality time and guide them to become a good person. That should be my goal.  I love them and I hope they love their strict mom too. Strict mom tends to make good children and they are my good children.

My kids tend to ask what's wrong when they look at me.  That day, when JW asked me what's wrong. I asked her why they both like to as me that question. Then she told me it's because she thinks I looked sad and angry.  Told her nothing is wrong. It's just stress in life, stress from a lot of things like getting them to bathe, wash their mouth and hands, comb their hair, drink more water, etc.  Then she said that I can just tell them to do so and need not scold them:) Well well, she is teaching me a lesson here. It cause no harm to just calm down and take it easy.  Phew! Now on, I must be in control, steady, calm and nice. Less stress......

I also remember mom used to have that same sour face all the time. I guess I am like what she was at a particular stage. Too bad, I was not intelligent enough to offer her the same advice my dear gal gave me.  Thanks to her!