Mild Depression

6.9.11 - I think I am into a period of mild depression. Lately I am experiencing mood swing frequently, can be easily agitated and lonely deep down. Felt like I have offended the whole world but dont really know why. Felt guilt and mixed feeling most of the times.

I hope I can overcome this problem with my family support. They add colors to my life but when depression sets in, I tend to forget how blessed I am.

As for now, I am still struggling, hoping for a speedy recovery and move on. I like to improve myself but had no idea how to go about. Most time, I am not able to control myself and throw tantrum at my loved ones at home and regret it later. I must really appreciate my family especially TH for putting up with me, tolerates all the nonsense that I throw at him and loving me enough to do that. Tried to contact friends but to no avail, guess they are just too busy to have time for me. Moreover, I never had time for friends, so what can I expect. I reap what I sow, hmm:(

Come Sunday, have to pay visit to my Ku J together with JL and CC. So reluctant to go. I feel like I am forcing myself to do things that I do no wish to do. So pathetic.....