Cycling at Bali Wharf

3.12.12 - Just to pen it down, the cycling experience at Bali Wharf with my family was memorable and awesome.  It was a perfect place for cycling with designated lanes at the riverside.  My gal mastered her cycling skill there and now she's good at it, no doubt.  The bikes were all in good condition and we cycled freely without any difficulties. This is definitely a must-do in Taipei, thumbs up!

TH and Lassie

3.12.12 - I am recalling a little delight last night. When everyone called it a day and went up to bed, TH stayed up in the study room. I left my ipad downstair and came down for it. I saw TH quietly opened the window in the study room and talked to Lassie. He was complimenting her "good girl" and asked her to go to sleep. It was not the usual him that I saw. Well, Lassie just came home today from the pet hotel and he actually missed her as much as we did though he didnt want to show it openly.  So, I quietly sneeked back up without interfering. They are both adorable.

Jo Mo

3.12.12 - It is until recently that I discovered a little hidden truth from my kids. They used to ask me "jo mo" (what happen) most of the time out of nothing.  I didnt say a word, yet they will turn to me and ask what happen.  I always get frustrated and thought they were pulling my leg until they enlightened me with their study. They said I have deep lines on my forehead and it make me look like I am frowning and angry. Hey, it never come across my mind but it is so true. I have deep lines on my forehead but I didnt know I look angry. It makes sense. To my kids, I am not an angry mom. I am a cheerful mom with bad wrinkles only, hehehe...... Love U Both muccccch

Taipei 2012

25.11.12 - It's 10:30am now and it's pouring again like it used to be over the last few days we were here. Too bad we have to soak ourselve wet in this trip. The wet weather has indeed affected our plan and naturally we have been a little lazy too to go out. But we proceeded with our trip to Yehliu, Jiufen and Shifen with our driver, Mr. Keh who is friendly and nice. Due to the mist, we did not make it to Jinguanshi according to plan. Also, the wet weather has forbid me from taking nice shots in this trip. It was all mist and froggy, haiz:(  Well, I think I will be back to Taipei again.

Now I am still in bed while TH and JS went out to look for pork trotter shop nearby.  TH is hungry for pork trotter which is popular there and good JS is accompanying him. JS is very handy and helpful in this trip.  I admire his fine traits.  I noticed he learns to be courteous and kind.  When he saw a damanged chair, he chose to sit on it to allow us have the good ones. He has been queuing up in long line for meals. He has been carrying the backpack throughout the trip with our necessities in it, snacks, drinks, jackets, caps, etc. He runs errand for the family, navigates the way in and out Taipei.  He's my champ!

As for JW, she accompanied me for shopping one evening at Q-Square just below our apartment. I knew she would love to stay behind with her Ipad but she chose to accompany me and gave me her time.  I truly appreciated her and it was a warm shopping moment. I ended up buying a down feather winter jacket and also got her some lovely souvenirs for her friends.

3.12.12 - I am back home now on my computer penning this. Initially it was quite a boring trip with the wet weather but towards the final days there, all of us enjoyed thoroughly and we were reluctant to leave Taipei.  We enjoyed the food tremendously and had a number of good moments together. TH enjoyed the most in this trip. On the plane back home, he excitedly asked me to do homework on Tainan for the next trip, hahaha:)

I found myself in China

29.1.12 - It was during my holiday in China this CNY that I discovered my biggest flaw.  Had chats with Susan during the trip and made a discovery.  It was a constructive criticism and I accepted it.

Told her that my optician once said that I used to stare at people when I speak.  Susan rationalized with me that  when I do that, the other party will think that I do not trust them or have doubts in what they say. It can be very disturbing.  She added that I have always been defensive every time I speak, so as to say, I tend to attack or corner people every time I open my mouth and it is offensive. She revealed that she too has problem talking to me. I really have to be very careful of what I speak.  I cannot be brutally honest and not respect others feeling.

I do this to my family too.  Now that I know, I feel I am my biggest enemy and I have to change myself and no one else.

My Holiday To China (written by JW)

22.1.12 - I am now in a mini bus which head to a deck from ZhangJiaJie. 2.1.12, I went to China with my family, Gong Gong, Ama, Be Che, Be Zhim, Xi Go, Lak Go Po and Apek.  We went by tour.  I wish that China has snow before I went.  My wish come true although it was very cold but I never mind.

First, we stay in a hotel called 'Da Cheng' for two nights.Then, we will stay in a ship for three nights.

We went to a mountain in ZhangJiaJie.  The Avatar movie is taken at there.  When we reach there, it was snowing. At first, I thought it will be fun but at last, it was very cold.

China food is different from Malaysia food.  Some restaurants can cook dog meat and serve it to their customers. It was so cruel. But China food is OK for me.

I am so tired now. Bye!

My gal enjoys Museum

14.12.11 - My gal likes to visit museum.  She inspects the exhibits with great interest and is normally the one who is reluctant to leave. It is like a small child not wanting to leave a playground. So far, I notice this while we went to Malacca museum and now Dubai museum.

JW Special Habits

14.12.11 - In my Dubai trip, I  made a discovery. My gal has special habits not known to me before.

She loves reading, I know that.  But not that I now notice that each time she flips a page, she will use her tiny fingers to feel the paper. When I ask her why she does that, she said the paper is so smooth and it is nice to feel it.  She really does this on each page, no miss!

Next, I noticed too that she likes to suck a tea bag whenever she has tea.  Her favourite tea is Green Tea and she had a lot in Dubai.

A Lazy Start to 2012

8.1.12 - It is already 8th day into the new year and I am still in a lazy mode.  After the long break, I am still reluctant to resume my normal routine.  I haven't resume the morning walk at FRIM and poor TH has to go alone. I find excuses not to cook and tend to eat out most days.  I am not into full force yet, maybe I very much anticipate my next holiday to China in another 2 weeks time. Luckily, TH didn't complain.  I am thankful.

End of Dubai Holiday

19.12.11 - It's 3:37am in the wee morning on this day and I am still pretty much awake. Why? Came home from Dubai just yesterday morning at 9am, headed straight to bath and did nothing more. I slept until 4pm. Was totally exhausted, so I had a sound sleep. My kids joined me in my bed and they too had a good sleep. Due to the time differences, I am still not able to adjust yet, so ended up writing this at this point of time.

Well, let me sum up my trip. It was another excellent holiday with my family. We checked into the Atlantis at a promotional rate of RM2,000 per night and I say, it worths the money. We stayed there for 2 nights and had a blast. We checked in as early as 7am and left the hotel as late as 8pm. We were pampered at the Club Lounge for snacks and drinks all day long, laptop available all the time for kids, free access to Aquaventure Water park, The Lost Chamber, Kids Club and Club Rush too. All the facilities are great, huge, clean and satisfying. Visitors are not permitted to enter the hotel vicinity and that makes the hotel so prestigious and great.

Atlantis made our stay a memorable one when they left a birthday card and cake in the room on 11.12.11 for TH. The kids brought along their handmade birthday cards for dad. We celebrated that night in our room and it was good. Next day, I gave TH a treat. It was an experience of a lifetime, we actually went to the Burj Al Arab, world 7 star hotel for Afternoon Tea. The Skyview Bar gave TH a complimentary cake (a tiny one) for his birthday. He was so pampered. Though we both did not really enjoy the food but we had good moments together at that special place. After tea, we headed back to Atlantis to ppick up the kids and checked into Xclusive Apartment in the old city. We walked over to Spinney Supermarket and bought eggs, milk and etc for tomorrow breakfast. Weather was cooling and it was a nice 10-min stroll.

Following day, we walked over to the Dubai Museum and spent about half an hour. My gal enjoyed it most. Then we had Sarpino's Italian pizzas for lunch. It was delicious. Then, we headed to the creek where we took the 1dirham water taxi (abra) to cross over the river. Across, we visited 3 famous markets for gold, textiles and spices. Bought a souvenir there, a glass miniature of the Burj Al Arab for 15dirham. In the late evening, we boarded a marina cruise with buffet and belly dance show on board. The night view of the Marina Dubai are simply breathtaking, so beautiful. We had a great evening too.

Next day, we visited the shopping malls with our first stop at IBN Battuta at the far end of the Metro Line. We bought a one day metro ticket @ 14dirham each for unlimited rides. The metro is so modern, clean and comfortable. It was a good ride. On this day, I noticed that most of the shopping malls in Dubai are interestig in their own way. It was so comfortable to shop in the unique ambience. It was indeed a satisfying shopping experience. Went to Mall of Emirates and Dubai Mall too. Had early dinner at TGI Fridays and enjoyed the musical fountain there. Simply awesome show!

We went on a safari desert tour the next day, enjoyed dune bashing, camel rides, buffet dinner with show at the camp in the desert. We were transported there in a landcruiser with extra fitting (lined with steel bar for extra protection). My boy jumped at the front seat beside the driver and had the most fun doing the dune bashing. The driver is skilful and it was fun. There was also a stop in the deep desert where we got down and ran up a little hill on the fine sand. At the camp, the kids rode on camels. Knowing that the kids like the sand art in the bottle, we bought one with our names written on it for memory. Brilliant art work!

Finally, our holiday ended with a simple city tour. Practically, we went to most of the places before but this time, we had a tour guide. We learnt more about Dubai from him. I made effort to jot down some of the interesting facts about the country on my BB. Then we requested to be dropped off at the Mall of Emirates. We did our final shopping. The kids went to Borders while TH and I did some shopping. We bought quite a number of things and it was just satisfying.

After we checked out from Xclusive, we left our luggages behind while we made our last visit, to the Creek Park. It was a green park, clean and huge. We rented some bikes for an hour of exploration. There, JS had fun with his newly bought football, a tiny one. He also had a good experience with pop corn. He bought a packet from Sinney and learnt how to cook it in the microwave. The butter popcorn was delicious and we enjoyed it at the park.

So, that was it. We made our way to Xclusive Apartment, collected our luggages and off we went to airport. Overall, the holiday was good and I am thankful that my family are there with me. They made my trip!

It's 4:55am now, looks like I have nothing else to do now, other than sleep. 99

Birthday at Burj Al Arab, Dubai

12.12.11 - Believe it or not, I am actually at the Burj Al Arab building on the 27th floor in the Sky Bar having my most expensive afternoon tea @ RM426 per person. It is a birthday treat for my dear TH. Well, this is the cheapest way to get into this 7 star hotel as non guest are not allowed in. It's 5:45pm now and it's getting dark outside. I am enjoying the beautiful view in front of me, watching the sky turns dark and little lights turning on in the city. I feel on top of the world, to have this great opportunity to be here, to join the elites for an hour or two.

Though the afternoon tea is not up to our taste as the delicacies are just too sweet, however the experience makes up. TH gets a little birthday cake on the house but his best gift is able to see so many fine cars all on the road throughout our entire trip.

Kids are not permitted here, so we left them at the Atlantis Club Rush. I am sure they are having a great time right now because they have the whole Club all to themselves with computers and game gadgets for teens. They are so pampered. By the way, I can see Atlantis from this window and knowing that my kids are there now makes me feel that they are actually close to me, at heart. So blessed:)

Aquaventure Waterpark at Atlantis Dubai

11.12.11 - Had a splendid time with my family at this water park. It is so suitable for people at my age because it has a lazy river that takes u around the whole park without the fuss of even getting up from the tube. It goes through the rapids which is so fun with water gushing towards us and bashing us all around.

We went on all the slides there except the terrifying Leap of Faith. I think TH had the most memorable day among us because he enjoyed so much on the rapids that he shook his tube vigirously until it over turned and he fell into the water and knocked his head. It was not too serious but he left the water park with a bruise on the head and body ache everywhere. The kids and I had a good laugh. He was just too excited and played like a child, hehehe....

Good Company

7.12.11 - It's sunny now at 1:18pm and I am in my room after bath penning this. I feel relax and in good mood. Brought my kids to library just now and borrowed 9 books altogether. So glad that they enjoy reading. Reading is a good past time, it not only improves our knowledge, it helps us to relax, makes us more creative, gives us inspiration, etc.

Well, I am able to have time quietly penning this without any disturbance and I am thankful to both my kids. Both of them find company in each other and most times, they share a lot of things together. No doubt, they are not always in good term but they just enjoy teasing, arguing and making fun of each other to pass time. It's harmless. It's so precious to see them grow up together, finding good company in each other. Well, I am eventually a beneficiary as a result of it. I have more freedom and privacy to do my own stuff and have precious time alone. I can do my shopping while both of them spend time in the book shops. I am so grateful. I pray that their precious relationship will last forever.

Good Differences

16.11.11 - Worth jotting down my thoughts at this point of time. I liken TH and me like sky and earth, we are from two different world. It was never easy to maintain this marriage for 16 years now. But, I do realize that it is the same differences that keep us together. Maybe we are willing to learn from our differences and accept it as an interesting ordeal in life. I believe this learning process makes the marriage fun and workable.

He's from a Chinese school while I am from the Kebangsaan school. He reads Oriental Press at home while I read The Star. He speaks Hokkien, Mandarin and Cantonese. I speak Cantonese, English, Malay and a little Mandarin.

JS told me to take my time

1.12.11 - This is the first time my 14 years old boy told me to take my time when he saw me off at the door today. All the while, he will ask me to get back as soon as possible whenever I need to do an errand. He was kind of timid from young. But today I was taken aback by him. Why, has he grown up and become less timid or he's up to something naughty.

Well, I have been giving him tremendous pressure at home. It is year end holiday and I have assigned the kids house chores daily. Just now, he was half way vacuuming and I guess he thinks it would be better for me to stay away than keeping an eye on him.

Somehow I was not offended. I understand that it is hard for two humans to live under the same roof and it is good that we give each other some space. In my case, staying away from the house for few hours should be a win win situation for both of us. No harm:)

Mammogram at Selayang Hospital

10.11.11 - It's 11am now and I am sitting here at the taxi stand, waiting for TH to come and pick me up. Just did my mammogram and phew, what a relief. The limp is just the accumulation of tissue and biopsy is not necessary, according to the specialist. However, the mammogram procedure was painful this time as they used a different machine.

What is worth jotting down here is my encounter with few women who were there too for the mammogram. While waiting together for ultrasound after mammogram, I met 3 Malay and an Indian and we struck a conversation together. A Malay lady opined that once diagnosed cancer, it will surely kill a body and it is just a matter of time. Then the Indian walked in and joined our conversation, she believes that everything is destined by GOD, when we should fight we fight, when it's time it's time. Surprisingly, later I discovered that the Indian lady is actually my secondary teacher at BBGS, Mrs. Rama. What a small world! She's already 75 years old now and yes, she looked old. Couldnt really recognize her. I enjoyed the conversation with her and in no time, the tests were completed. There are so many things to see here, so much to observe. People here are courteous especially the nurses and doctors, good job! Fellow patients look friendly and kind. Young ones helping elderly here and there. Saw a Malay lady boards a taxi with a baby in her arm, she took the front seat beside the Indian driver and not the passenger seat. Humble lady. The atmosphere is good, I feel good. The kindness, friendliness, courtesy, etc that I seen today give me hope again being a Malaysian.

Thanks Lord for the good news today and I promise I will take very good care of my body....

Music is in the air

6.11.11 - As usual in my bed now at 11pm. My gal is still playing on the piano, the song entitled 'sang sin de ren gen sang sin' by Eric Moo, one of my favorites those days. She got very excited today ypon hearing me played on the piano this morning. Asked me to show her, so I wrote a section down on paper for her. Today, my kids eagerly sat beside me at the piano while I played a few numbers and listened ardently like my fans. When I played Moon River, I was playing it out of my own improvisation and not according to the book. They were curious as why I didnt play note by note accordingly, so I explained to them that I actually played my own version according to my own feeling, maybe that is why it sounded nice to listen. They both agreed that I played well. Both of them stuck with me for quite some time at the piano. They seemed to show great interest and got enthusiastic. Somehow I got carried away and felt excited too. Today I hear sound of piano and guitar almost the whole day at home. Music is definitely in the air. Love them so much:)

In fact, we went to CEO karaoke this morning and had a great time, especially me, I love singing. I also love listening to my family sings. There is music in my blood. It's a gift from dad to me. He sent me to music lessons since young for more than 10 years. I can now play the electone and piano although I hardly play anymore. Music moves me. Through music, I am able to relax and calm down. I find solace in music. Surprisingly, my gal told me that I sing like a singer, overwhelmed! My boy too can sing. When he sing Jay Chou, his idol songs, he can do it effortlessly. As for the little gal, she sings off key but lovely. I see her passion.

Sleepless Night

20.10.11 - It's 11 :11pm now and I am in bed penning this. It is raining outside and infact it has been raining here over the past weeks. Cant sleep, partly because of the excitement over my Phuket trip tomorrow evening with the kids after exam. Secondly it's because of another outing on 29.10.11 to Chilling Waterfall, invited by Ivy Loh under a group on FB called Budget Traveller. Read about the details of the outing on FB just now and realize that it was indeed an adventure. I am excited and at the same time, worry if TH will back out once he knows the details. We will get wet up to waist level when doing the 6 river crossings and we have to pack our lunch in a waterproof bag for the trek, etc. Sounds interesting to me, though I only know Ivy among the 50 over participants. I pretty much look forward to it.

Hmm, better not think too much about the waterfall trek first but focus on my Phuket holiday tomorrow. Well, it is also rainy season in Phuket and according to the forecast, there will be thunderstorm for the next 10 days. Hope the weather have mercy and let us have at least one or two good days. A little worried though but very excited:)

Captivating Smiles

Oct 2011 - I discover a little fact today. When family and friends complimented my family pictures on Facebook, I noticed that our smiles were indeed captivating. Browsing over and over again those pictures, I discover that those smiles were genuine and natural and that was exactly the reason behind it. It reflects happiness. We actually captured those happy moments and naturally, those smiles were from deep down. It was not intentional as those photo shoots at studio. That's the difference, make sense o!

Beautiful Chiling Waterfall Trip

29.10.11 - Today my family joined the Budget Traveller to Chilling Waterfall organized by Ivy Loh. It was an hour away in Kuala Kubu. We brought two water resistant back packs and put our stuff and food all wrapped in plastic. It was about 70 of us in 20 cars. Ivy and gang did a good job, it was well coordinated and all went well.

The adventure started right at the entrance where we were stranded as the gate was closed and locked for whatever reason unknown to us. So we had to trepass the property and mischievously climbed over the gate one after another. It was a thrill. Then we gotto go through 6 river crossings where we will definitely get wet up to the waist level. We trek the muddy path, fought the river rapids, made steep climb and did things that we have never done before. It was tought yet fun. We all helped each other in the trek. It was such a beautiful thing to see people kindness. JW has understood the meaning of lend a hand in this trip. Whenever, she has problems making her way, there was always a hand held out for her. At first, she was reluctant to hold a stranger hand but when I explained to her what kindness is all about, she accepted. I am so happy that we made the trip.

JS told me that JL asked him why we didnt invite them and he explained that registration was already full. Honestly, never thought of asking them to join because I would like my family to do this on our own. This way, it is easier for us to mix with the group and make friends. Sigh, mission not accomplished:(

Well, I remember once when Sally and I joined Xerox outing to Sunway Lagoon as an outsider and we knew nobody there. It was just two of us and we went there for fun. When we reached the entrance, we were given a strand of color ribbon and accordingly we were split up into different groups based on the color of the ribbon. It was a nightmare that I lost my partner. But the whole ordeal turned out to be a delight. I had so much fun mixing with the group of strangers and so did Sally. It was a sweet surprise:)

My Pride and Joy

11.10.11 - Tonite I went to bed in a good mood. As I was downloading the family pictures of our Penang trip this afternoon, I recalled the good times spent together in this trip and browsing through the pictures simply reflect happiness. I thanks GOD for their existence in my life.

TH showers me with love in his own way and I feel it. He is also proud of me and it is especially evident when we are with his parents. Though he is not romantic at all, he is always protective and it feels good to be in his care. Not only he makes breakfast for the kids every morning before school, he also buy my breakfast and newspaper after his morning walk. It is so good to wake up with breakfast and newspaper on the table. At times, he makes me feel like a mistress more than a wife at home. When the kids are at school, we go for facial together, enjoy lunch dates and have good private moments.

As for my kids, they are extremely passionate about me. They adore me and yearn for my love. They will normally fight to sit behind me in the car, etc. They show me great affection and make me feel important. They are my pride and joy!

JS is a talented boy, he can easily make the whole family laugh with his funny humor. He is humorous and very likable. I get strict with him because he is a boy. I believe a boy should learn to be tough and strong. My boy is growing up fast and he will be a fine gentleman soon. MY PRIDE, he is.

JW is soft and feminine in nature, likes to cuddle teddy bear and her little bolster wherever she goes. I gotto share many girly things with her and boy, she understands me inside out. She knows how to comfort me in bad times, when menses delays, she shares my worries, she asks and checks me out. I think I find a friend in her. MY JOY, she is.

My Heart Ache

12.2.12 - It was during lunch today with my beloved sis and bro and family that I was taken aback by a remark from my sis. They were talking and complimenting my kids for good result in their studies and suddenly she dropped the bomb. She said their good work is attributed to our mom and kakak Endang and not me. She said NOT ME! Gosh, why must she say that. Instantly, I felt like a knife piercing through my heart and it was painful.

Whether I help my kids or not, I know and my kids know too. It saddened me that I felt like she is trying to hurt my feeling intentionally. She is so unkind today:(

Anantara Phuket 2011

24.10.11 - Today, we will be checking out at Anantara Villa and I am a little reluctant to leave this beautiful resort. By the way, we are actually staying here for free at the courtesy of AVC subject to a compulsory 90mins sales preview at the Turle Village next door. TH and I met up with them yesterday and we decided not to take up their offer after all. Oops! gotto pen off temporarily for now, off to the beach with our so called picnic basket:)

Sitting on the beach on the mat now, watching the kids have fun with the interesting waves is a blessing. The beach is so clean, quiet and private as if it belongs to us, just us!

Anantara is huge, it's entrance is a narrow alley with fire lit up at both sides with high Egyptian bricks and it's like entering Jurassic Park as in the movie with guards dressed in Vietnamese uniform escorting us.

Our pool villa is a sweet delight. It is so spacious with private pool and sala too. Everything is so sufficient in the room, plenty drinking bottles, fruits, premium coffee and tea with sofisticated coffee machine, cookies, sketch papers, salt and flower petals for bath, stationery, ipod dock with speaker that the whole villa can hear, plenty TV channels and the best thing is we actually got to watch badminton live final between Lee Chong Wei and Chen Long. LCW lost:(

The items are replenished twice daily, so we really aint short of anything there. Breakfast for two is sumptuous at La Sala with huge varieties. Drove our rented car to have good Thai food at nearby Kindee Restaurant and off to the weekend night market yesterday at Phuket town was a nice experience. We had local Thai porridge with pork organs, smooth and delicious but a little cold.

An adorable 'jai lai'

Oct 2011 - It was at the Anantara Phuket in our private pool where my gal wanted to compete with her brother as who swim faster. Each time she was close to winning, she would screamed excitedly and confidently 'jai lai' meaning to do it again as if she is very certain that she will win the next one. She enjoyed the race so much that she kept competing with her 'jai lai' until she was out of breath. Then she stopped and whispered softly 'hen lei' meaning very tired, hehehe...

We were all so delighted to see her extreme excitement. She brought tremendous joy at that moment. She was so adorable. Every now and then, having thought of it delights me. It was memorable.....

Best Noodles Ever Had

4.10.11 - On my bed now @ 12.35am, listening to radio 988 to DJ Chan Fong in a very good mood. Cant sleep because too happy. TH told me just now before he snoozed off that this morning, our little gal told him that she wants a big bowl of chan hin mee for dinner today. By the way, TH had dinner appointment outside, so I made chan hin mee for dinner. The gal told TH that the chan hin mee that I make is the best noodles she ever had before. Wow, that's encouraging! What a sweet compliment from a 10 year old gal and the fact that she didnt say it to me but to TH means she meant it. This compliment is so memorable that every time I cook this noodle, I will naturally put in my effort to keep my standard.

True enough, that night when she returned from tuition, she asked me to prepare a large bowl for her. She also requested to be given the remaining pork mince because I have mentioned before that the oil from the remaining pork mince will make the noodle oilier and taste better. So, I prepared a rather big portion for her and she finished it all. Then, she said very delicious and asked me if the extra oil in the remaining pork mince will make her fat, hehehe..... cute!

Well, JS likes this noodle too but just not as expressive as the gal. It is mom recipe. This again proves mom is truly the world's best chef because she has one secret ingredient and that is LOVE. Mom used to prepare this for dad. Mom must be very proud of me because I succeeded in passing down a good recipe. This noodles reminds me of mom and I will continue to cook this noodle in memory of her, always and forever......

Photo Shoot With In Law

28.9.11 - We went to Rex Photo Shop in Pudu this evening together with my parents in law for a photo shoot. It was my suggestion that we ought to have a family portrait put up in the house in addition to the rest.

We dressed smartly in our coat and gown and made our way there quite early and right away, we had our photos taken. Mom and dad in law were courteous, humble and a little shy. I felt the warmth of a family that night. We all enjoyed the photo shoot session especially the kids, I think all of us looked good. Later, we viewed our photos on computer to make our selection. Luckily all of us are quite accommodating and very quickly we sum up our selection. Dad in law wanted to take separate photos for himself and mom in law, guess he has an intention. TH also suspected so but didnt dare to talk about it. So our bill was about $1400 and TH paid for it.

Then, we made our way to Bonga Korean Restaurant for dinner. Dad in law enjoyed the dinner but as usual, not mom in law. She always show resentment but that night she kept her cool. Normally, she never fail to complain about food outside, either too salty, too oily, too much, too expensive, etc. We all understand her well and guess I too accepted the fact. However, she did a good job too by not making any fuss. She was courteous. Overall, it was a pleasant evening out with my parents in law.....

Tatsu Japanese Restaurant

22.9.11 - This is our favourite Japanese restaurant in town. TH and I have been regular customers at this outlet. Previously it was in Nikko hotel beside Citibank but just last month it was bought over and now it is InterContinental Hotel.

Actually whenever I need to do banking at Citibank, we will then take opportunity to dine here with the CIMB 50% discount. Food is good, ambience is quiet, service is excellent, etc. It is truly a good deal. TH would normally order assorted premium sashimi and both our favourite, the Sukiyaki. By the way, we have almost tried most o the items there. Each time I need to go to Citibank, both of us will get excited and look forward to another superb lunch. It is our dates.

Unexpected Wedding Dinner Delight

18.9.11 - It was my neighbour Datuk and Datin Ng's son wedding and dinner was held just last nite at Concorde Hotel. As usual, I was reluctant to go but I did it out of social responsibilities. Luckily my family were there with me. I have never felt so much at ease before at a wedding dinner. Not only the dinner brought back some of the fond memories of my wedding 16 years ago in the same ballroom, we were seated with a couple who is our distance neighbour across the road. The wife called Molly sat beside me and she was extremely friendly and courteous. It was just six of us at Table 25. Sitting with my family together with the couple that evening somehow made me feel like I was just having a casual dinner with family and friends. Very comfortable! We all enjoyed the food especially JW. Happy to see her enjoy her food for the first time. Molly complimented the kids for their well manners. She said JS looks very much like me and thawt his smile is very charming and likable. Actually I already fore warned them to behave at the table and it turned out that they did a good job. They were jovial and well behaved. I love them very much.

In the middle of dinner, when TH returned to the table after toilet, the sole of his Versace shoe came off half way and out of embarassment, he quickly picked it up and quietly put it inside JW bag. We knew and it was just humorous.

Then, before dinner ended, we decided to make a move together with the couple to avoid the crowd. We quietly made our way out to the car park and only then, TH realized he left his handphone on the table. All of us panicked and got nervous. TH asked JS to go back for it as his shoe was damaged and inconvenient to go. JS panicked and asked me to follow him but at that moment, I dropped my earrings and was anxiously looking out for it. Realizing that JS had to go back alone, I was quite worried and decided to follow him but by the time I followed, the car park lift closed and he was gone. I was just too slow.

Gee, my boy was capable. He got it back and he got it back after some efforts. He spoke to the waiter and manager there and finally they gave it back to him. TH was so relieved and I was so proud and happy, not because of the handphone but because of my boy.

When we reached home, we had some fun with the balloons that my kids brought back from the dinner. It was filled with helium gas. The kids let go of their balloons and we watched them slowly disappeared in the dark sky. We were in good spirit that night. What a simple joy:)

What I thought would be a dreadful and boring dinner turned out to be a sweet delight. Life is just so unpredictable......

An Episode At School

19.9.11 - This morning we had to drop off JW first at school as TH had appointment to see Dr. Kim Tan in Sunway. When we reached school, JS suddenly blurted out that it is dark outside and it is very early to go school. I dont know if he said that, trying to strike fear in his sis or said it unintentionally. But his statement struck fears in the gal and she refused to get down from the car. TH said she can wait a while in the car till the sky get brighter. But JS got impatient somehow as he wanted to reach school early to be with his friends. So he started persuading his sis to get down but to no avail until TH suddenly lost his cool and started to blame the gal for not being considerate on that day. The gal understood and agreed to get down but tears flowed down her cheek as she alighted the car. Poor gal, she tried hard to control her tears, she kept wiping her tears while walking into the school.

After sending the kids off, TH asked me whether JW actually cried this morning. Told him yes. He felt bad.

Hmm, what a morning hiccup! I am sure my family can get over this.....

A Dear Friend Diagnosed Cancer

14.9.11 - Last month, my friend had a surgery and was diagnosed malignant cancer on her ovary and breast. Text her few times but no reply. We are good buddies at night, when night falls and times to destress and let down our hair. We are drinking buddies.

Now I am very worried about her. I hope she will be fine. Most times, we drank to our fullest and abused our body. We took our health for granted. We had best times ever but could it now be a pay back time.

I begin to do a lot of reading these days on breast cancer. In fact I also have a lump on my left breast for years and I have been seeing doctors at Selayang Hospital half yearly for monitoring and follow up. Mammogram and ultrasound have failed to detect it though it can be felt by hand. All previous doctors assured me that it is fibroadenomas, meaning a growth made up of fibrous and glandular tissue.

When I read more these days, I realize that I am not taking my problem seriously because I should not just accept assumption but to do a biopsy. Time is of essence in case of cancer treatment, the earlier we know the better chances to get well. Hmm, so worried....

JS Develops Temper

5.9.11 - JS is growing up and is subject to stress, I think.... Told him to help his sis to fold an origami bird for homework, he refused and asked me to do it instead. Was angry and scolded him. I lost my cool and said bad things to him and now regretted it. That was yesterday, now I am thinking, he was not rebellious but more of developing temper. Both of us just couldnt control our temper and thus the outburst.

Though deep inside, I know he has been a good and obedient boy, I forgot his virtue. I was too emotional and fail to understand his growing up predicament.

Just now in the car, I made a point to let him know that he should always remember that he will be forgiven no matter what and vice versa too. Taught him how to handle stress in future and that it is alright. He can talk it out or write down or do something else, whichever makes him forget the issue and calm him down.

TH under Good Infuence

2.9.11 - It's a cloudy day today and it's 2:09pm, I am now at the my patio enjoying chrysanthemen tea with my kids while our 2 tortoises taking a stroll in the garden. The kids are doing their holiday homework here and TH is at work.

Just now, I found a new book lying on the table and the kids told me that it belongs to TH. He bought two books at the book fest yesterday and I wasnt aware. TH BUYS A BOOK! Yes, that is unlike him. The kids and I looked at each other with a face of disbelief and smiled in doubts. TH is never fond of books and the fact that he bought those books amused us. I guess he was somehow influenced by us. Yesterday, we spent almost half a day at the Book Fest, selecting our books, put them in the basket, find a corner, read them before shortlist them before purchase. Of course, we bought some books. I bought a book entitled Stock Market Secrets by Andrew Chia. JS bought 4 story books while JW bought some workbooks for home practice as she will be stopping tuitions from this month onwards. Being in the top class, she is subjected to loads of homework and in her last exam, she did quite poorly in her Chinese essay, thus Teacher Thong penalizes her with additional Chinese essays homework. My gal is a little slow in action, therefore she is stressed out with those homeworks. So, I am helping her out by cutting her tuitions in hope that she will study hard on her own with her little extra time, if any.

Well, back to TH. When we were enjoying our books at the Book Fest, he was actually quite impatient but somehow he bear with us and managed to occupy himself while waiting for us. Glad that he bought those books. He told the kids that he will read them in the toilet like what JW has been doing all this while. Guess should build a book stand in the toilet for them, hahaha....

Mild Depression

6.9.11 - I think I am into a period of mild depression. Lately I am experiencing mood swing frequently, can be easily agitated and lonely deep down. Felt like I have offended the whole world but dont really know why. Felt guilt and mixed feeling most of the times.

I hope I can overcome this problem with my family support. They add colors to my life but when depression sets in, I tend to forget how blessed I am.

As for now, I am still struggling, hoping for a speedy recovery and move on. I like to improve myself but had no idea how to go about. Most time, I am not able to control myself and throw tantrum at my loved ones at home and regret it later. I must really appreciate my family especially TH for putting up with me, tolerates all the nonsense that I throw at him and loving me enough to do that. Tried to contact friends but to no avail, guess they are just too busy to have time for me. Moreover, I never had time for friends, so what can I expect. I reap what I sow, hmm:(

Come Sunday, have to pay visit to my Ku J together with JL and CC. So reluctant to go. I feel like I am forcing myself to do things that I do no wish to do. So pathetic.....

Guitar Lessons for JS

August 2011 - Finally I registered guitar lesson for my boy after much delay and hesitation. This will be a wonderful gift for him. I dont expect him to excel in it or be someone great. My simple wish is that he enjoys it. Music can calm feeling and is a beautiful thing in life.

Well, again he has proven his ability. With just few lessons, he can play quite a number of good songs and pick up fast. Most importantly, he enjoys it too. He is a fast learner, I believe. He can actually excel in anything I put forward, if only he enjoys. I think my boy will have great success in anything he does in future. Happy for him:)

My Blog Found A Meaning 2011

When my kids first created this blog for me in 2009, it was just for fun. Making use of this generation tools, it could be cool and on par with my kids. I begin writing as if I am writing my diary which I did during school days. After all, I can write. I received compliments before at college and at work. So, I start to document my life in this blog. At least I will have a back up at old age should my black box fail me.

Initially, it is a diary that should be personal. However, my gal came up to me one day early this year and asked me to continue writing, then I realized that my kids are actually following my blog and have been reading my thoughts all the while. It freaked me at that moment when my diary has actually turned into something like Wimpy Kid Diary that they love.

Then on, there is a new found meaning to my blog. It turns into a legacy from me to my kids. This blog help me and the kids to record all important lessons and messages in life and always remember precious times we spent together, be it the good, the bad, joy, sorrow, etc that left a mark in our lives.

Now that I know they have been following this blog, I hope they will continue to do so and enjoy it. Though this is just one way interaction, I look forward to hear from them in this blog one day.

JS Unwise Spending

6.8.11 - It will be Brandon (JS classmate) birthday next Saturday and he invites JS and few friends to celebrate with him at Mid Valley. Initially, it was a yes but until he told me today that Brandon asks them to bring at least $55 for a 30min game of Laser Tech. I was reluctant, the kids spend money so recklessly. It is not so much about the money but more on the value. I dont know about the rest but as for JS, the last time he played the game with friends, he paid $25 for just a mere 10min and was tempted to play again. He ended up paying another $50 for another 20min. This game is just too expensive and he was carried away. It does not worth the money no doubt it is a cool and new game in town. I need to let him know the value of money so that he will not end up a spendthrift. I think he understands:)

Cutie 2012

4.2.12 - I am recalling a sweet incident recently, at least to me. It was at a hotel room in Zhangjiajie where my little gal noticed TH pair of gloves on the table (as in the picture). Excitedly, she walked up to TH and asked him how he did it. Not knowing what she meant, TH just said he didnt do anything but just left it on the table. Not satisfied, she came up to me to sort an answer, so I told her it could be that the art work that she saw was just a coincidence and not intentional. Probably dad just threw it on the table and it landed like a piece of art work. Then, came the funny part.....

After I walked away, didnt notice that she was still there thinking about it until when not long, I saw her throwing her pair of gloves on the table again and again. Hehehe! After numerous attempts, she just stopped and took away her gloves with a face of dissappointment. Cute eh!

Childhood Conditioning Made Sis a Victim

2 Feb 2012 - Suddenly I seem to understand the fact that a younger sibling tends to follow or even imitate what her sibling does. And true enough, to one extent, the elder sibling will get annoyed. I actually made my observation from my China trip two weeks ago. Normally the kids share a lot of things together when left alone, be it at home or on holiday. But in this China trip, I noticed JS tend to leave JW alone as he enjoyed mixing with the rest in the group, which is a good thing too. That explains that if one is given a choice, he or she may be conditioned differently.

Then, I recalled my own case. Mom was very close to her eldest sister and subsequently I was close to Helen due to the conditioning environment then. Helen used to share bed with me every weekend and we got close. At one point of my life, mom and Helen were so important that I told myself I cant live without them. However, this conditioning has indirectly affected my sister. Till now, she always say that she wish she has a elder brother who loves her fondly. I dont seem to understand why, but now, I think I do. I was closer to Helen than to her back then and I remembered that she used to follow and imitate us most of the time and I always get annoyed. Somehow, she was victimised by this condition. It was a condition by circumstance and it was unintentional. I hope one day, she will understand this.